And so i couldnt stop myself frm blogging till after 2nd June.

Im clueless on wat to study for the int'l tourism exam and wats more it's focused on tourism policy and planning.

And im still not looking forward to tmr's oral test even though i wana get it done and over with ..


i cant study in the morning!!


and since summer is approaching and wen the heat sometimes gets unbearable, nothing feels more like heaven than eating a whole tub of ice cream. waha~

somebody save meee~

toodles ..

5/29/2008 11:25:00 PM

Thank to my dearest cow-fetish roomie (shes gona kill me for this.. waha), i decided to re-read my past entries from the moment i left Singapore to my most recent entry. And it really brought back alot of memories which i shall treasure for a very very long time. We realli cant help it but in all of our convo nowadays there will be an emo moment that either me or diba will bring up. Yes roomie i will reali miss u and ur weird crazy 'irritating' moments.

Coincidentally my horoscope for the day says:

Starting today, you can expect the feverish pace of your life to slow down quite a bit -- and it's not a moment too soon! This throttling down is going to happen organically, and it will offer you the chance to recharge your drained batteries. So you can look forward to letting the craziness of the world pass on by you while you kick back and relax with the friends who know how to help you unwind. The forecast is for sunnier, more social times ahead.

yes pls .. more social time with the peepz ive gotten close to here before we start moving on our separate ways.

And on other news, so far the exams have been .. erm .. hmmm .. indescribable. Marketing was oookkiieee but im not reali confident in one of the question i answered and German .. well .. lets juz say had brutally murdered me and im not looking forward to the oral test cming friday. sigh~ thank god it's not included in our overall BA marks. Just hope that tourism can help me push my marks back up. *prays and cross fingers ..

And and, yest i decided to watch the movie 'Ayat ayat cinta'. It's not like me to watch a malay/indon movie but since it was recommended, no harm watching rite. And .. i cried!! my tears are all wasted crying for all the sad movies but it was worth it. Juz a tout after watching the movie: Are you strong enuf to see the man u love marries someone else? Im not so sure of the answer for myself. But hopefully i dont need to ans it at all ...

okie i shd stop blogging till after the 2nd June .. we'll see how long it can last. hee~

tOodlEs

Life is about trusting your feelings and taking chances, losing and finding happiness, appreciating the memories, learning from the past, and realizing people change

5/27/2008 06:59:00 PM

Im suppose to be memorizing the whole stack of German notes but here i am changing my blogskin. tsktsk~

I'll start soon. Promise.

tOodlEs 5/26/2008 11:39:00 PM

In a few hours time, the start of the nightmare begins. A week juz zooms past and i pray hard that whatever i've been studying will stay in my head till after 11am. haha~ Pls god make the 2hrs as painless as possible.
But shouldnt i get used to exams? Been sitting for countless number of exams for the past 15 years of my sch life. And this will be my last time sitting for exams till if i decide to take up MBA. haha~ So .. shouldnt i be anticipating it and be sad that it's all gona be over soon .. right? ermm .. lol

Went tru my organiser yesterday and as i flip tru each week since the start of my life in Swiss, im surprised at myself for surviving all those agonizing deadlines that are all packed close to each other. And wen i start flipping to future dates after today, im shocked at the limited time im left here!! the coming week will be filled with me studying for German and tourism den the week after, packing for spore and florence/venice trip den the week after that the long awaited Italy trip den after that sis will be arriving = graduation and soon it will be time to fly home. OMG-ness lah! sigh~
Ohwells .. lets treasure the remaining days we have left ..

And news frm sis, my littlest bro is making problems again. It has and always been him. Doesnt he kno how much time and money have been spent on him? Doesnt he seem to care what mum have been sacrificing so far mostly for him and this is the way he pays all of it back? I juz dont get wats running in the thick skull of his. sigh~ I juz hope as i step into the working world, i could help out with the family expenses and put less burden on mum. She needs a rest already.

Mayb the first step is to do well for my degree so that she can be proud of me. And if i do well, im dedicating it also to my elder sis and dad's unachievable dreams.

Back to memorising ..

tOodlEs~ 5/25/2008 09:36:00 PM

Friday is already coming to an end. And im still not at all confident on where my marketing revision is goin. I hope all goes well on Monday. *crossfingers

And for a perk-me-up .. chocolates!! the only way to finish reading the chapters without falling asleep. Sadly it failed. sigh .. haha


And we had a super belated grad ceremony for our cert that we took in SIM. better late than never huh .. but seriously, the mini-ceromony wasnt at all necessary. haha








the first batch of SIM-IMI students

School gona end soon in about a week's time. Everyone is goin tru an emo phase of leaving frens that have been made and gotten used to. For me, there's countless of stuff here that i'll be missing. Will list them down wen the time comes nearer. As they say, all good things have to come to an end. And less than a month time before i'll be back in Spore.

wish me luck for the exams.

tOodlEs~ 5/23/2008 09:11:00 PM

Sis recommended the J-drama - 1 litre of tears quite some time ago wen i juz started sch. Bookmark the webpage and only now do i have the mood to start watching. She told me tt i wll cry buckets of tears and surely i did .. from the start till the end i cried.

Following the story, I admire her strength, her perseverance and her will to carry on despite wat she faces. To think what im have is bad enuf and downright scary but throughout the show it teaches me a lesson of life. The story really made me reflect on myself more and i end up crying not only for her but for myself as well. I cant reali compare what i have with what she faced but the similarities of questioning why exists. I do try to keep the things under wraps and so far ive been succeeding. I juz want to be normal. To be like everybody else. Sometimes i wonder how is it like if 'it' was never a part of me. No denying that becoz of 'it', sometimes i wished i was never born in the first place. How unlucky can one be. It's tiring to try to be accepted and try to act as if everything's alright.

But throughout it all, im still glad being me. From the challenges that i went tru i realise the true meaning of famly, who my true frens are and who i really am. I should not count myself as being unlucky but special. Judge me for all i care. You have no idea what my life have been about. The first 11 years of my life i was being sheltered. i was still green and naive. But that moment. From that particular day i was forced to grow up. I have been fighting my own demons and i've been fighting the world. I will continue on fighting coz i kno one day it will all be worth it. As tiring as it is and in times when i feel there is no use continuing on, i shall push myself up and move on. Coz at the end of the day wen it's time for me to go, i know i have done my best and i know that it is time for me to finally rest and let it all go. The pain that i have to go tru physically and emotionally i kno can only make me stronger. Mayb someday the burden i carry can be shared with whom i know is the one. For now im contented with god being my best fren. Mayb he has some plans for me that only he knows is the best. Till that moment i shall wait patiently. I shall continue moving on like what ive been doing thus far. In the end when i look back in my life i do not want to hav any regrets and wishing that i could turn back time and change what have been done or have not been done.

tOodlEs 5/20/2008 10:50:00 PM

The past few days or should i say since yesterday i feel that something's not right. My head is clouded with touts that i myself am clueless about. Just to smile take up some effort to do so when i kno i hav to in order to show the world everything's alright. Well they are arent they? but whats with this crappy feeling. Im not depressed or worried or stressed but all ive been wanting to do is crawl under my comforter and hide myself and sleep the day away. sigh. dont even ask me wat the problem is coz i dont even know.

Mayb somehow unconsciously i may kno why or mayb im juz being paranoid or mayb im juz being me. At times like this i wish i was back home.

ohwell~ i'll be alright soon

tOodlEs 5/18/2008 04:17:00 PM

While majority of our course mates have ended class 2 days ago and now still soundly asleep in their oh-so-comfy bed, here we (particularly events students) are in class, stoning our way tru juz for an extra cert. ohwell~ last lesson to end the semester. and the reality that sch gona be over soon is slowly sinking in.

For the past 2 days have been watching bollywood movies - mohabbatein & khabi khusi khabi gham. While some of our frens are having drinking sessions, we decide to have out own crying session instead.
And yesterday surene came to join us for dinner and movie ... and she decide to sleep over. And at the sad part of the movie, she started to laugh!!! ArgH!! spoiler lah surene!!! hahahaha .. the day before yest diba laughed at the sad part too! mayb today i shall laugh instead of crying .. hahaha
Then they decided to watch 6thsense in which i feel asleep coz i felt it was boring. lol

I still have yet to get into the mood to start studying. Mayb on sunday latest i'll start chiong-ing

till then

tOodlEs
And to those who wana see pics of my trips so far, everything is posted on facebook. =) 5/16/2008 11:30:00 AM

Time check: 6.30am

After fighting with the printer to print out 8 sets of dissertations, it's finally done!! but only after 12pm then i shall celebrate. haha. Amazingly i didnt sleep! im still awake but i predict that during marketing class later i will stone my way tru and concussed rite after that. waha~
Hopefully the hard work that was put in for the past 5mth to write the 12,000 words dissertation will pay off. Same goes to all the other assignments and projects that we lost our sleep and sanity over. lol

Time to claim back my sleep and watching movies will be my top priority till mayb after the weekends wen it's time to start mugging for the exams.

Anyhoos, I kno im abit too late but still ... HAPPY BELATED MOTHER'S DAY!!! =)
Called mummy dearest on Sunday and she was at my aunt house for a family gathering. It was funnie wen her hp was passed around from my grandmother to my aunts to cousins and to my siblings.

A month left in Swiss .. im reali gona miss life here. *sigh

tOodlEs 5/13/2008 06:30:00 AM

Exactly 2 month from now i'll be starting my first day of werk. But before that, now im still goin crazy with sch's assignment. Im not at all confident with the way my individual events essay is turning out. hElp~ and yest got my dissertation and it was a bit of a shocker. Stuff to edit and things to find. I'll get all of it done and over with soon.

On a separate note, did some reflecting .. for the past 5 month here, a lot things have been happening. Situation change, people change and u can never get back to that once upon a time. Throughout my time here i've learn more bout myself as well as others around me. Got close to ppl i never once talk to and got torn apart from ppl that i usually do. Disappointed at some but overall at least i kno now the true meaning when they say change is inevitable.

And on a random note, i cant stand ppl rejoicing at others downfall. Dont you kno that what goes around comes around.

counting down to: 8 days of school left .. hmmm~

tOodlEs 5/06/2008 11:22:00 AM

Train tixs and accommodation booked and confirmed ..

Florence and Venice here i come ...

Well .. after the exams. Cant wait!!!

tOodlEs 5/02/2008 01:55:00 AM

It's suppose to be a public holiday - it's labour day for god sake. But here i am stuck in sch since 8.30am for a 4hrs class of German!!! And since im here might as well stay in the well to complete my PDP reflective report. Almost done .. 300 words to go .. haa~

After 2 weeks finally called back home. Im always looking forward to doin so. I ll be back soon .. less than 2 mths now. counting down to the moment SQ touches down on Spore's ground. haha~

Anyhoos, some nights ago, i had this super weird dreams. First, i realise i was laughing so hard in my sleep that it woke me up. Den wen i went back to sleep, i started crying so bad that i couldnt breath. The worst part of it i kno it was a dream but i couldnt wake up till the point i was gasping for air. *shivers ..
When i finally managed to come back down to earth, i didnt dare to sleep back. The weird part of it all is that i cant remember what the dreams were about that made me laugh and cry so bad.

And bout a few mins ago was watching Kal Ho Na Ho .. yes a bollywood movie. The funnie thing is there's no subtitile. Nonetheless i kept on watching. And i understood most of the parts (mayb coz ive watched it before). Still, i do teared up .. tsktsk asy. ur a sucker for this kinda movies. hahaha~

Back to work.

And today feels like a Saturday. hee~ okie random ..

tOodlEs 5/01/2008 08:01:00 PM