just reached home about an hr ago from my family outing. yes u read it right. family outing. all 7 of us went to watch X-men3: The last stand. It was totally awesome. and sad. my scott died so fast in the beginning. but there was this particular person death dat made me shed tears. wont really say it for the sake of those who have not yet catch it yet. me & my siblings predicted there's gonna be X-men 4 .. more of hoping actually .. haha .. but the way it ends, i surely want to. this movie do teaches some stuff like one of em' : even when you love someone so bad, soemtimes you just have to let them go.
to kno the rest watch it den we can discuss bout it. haha

tips for those who gonna watch: even wen the movie had ended dont leave. wen all the name listed is done, there gonna be the real ending to the story. =)

anyway, had samba practice again juz now and really had fun. played the a-go-go bells and we learnt new movement from it - for our solo part. really enjoyed myself. mayb gonna be performing for the graduating ceremony but it'S on the same day as my OB test. how?
we'll see ..

and other than raffles hotels, no other have been calling me for an interview. i am sooo worried. i'll be looking at my hp once it a while hoping that someone will call. but at the end of this week if no one really calls mayb i shall try out an event co. or mayb even the zoo (that's if all positions are not taken up)
less than one month already!!!

ok shall go back to projects while waiting for charmed to start. hehe

tOodleS 5/30/2006 07:08:00 PM

today was the official day of the school holidays and damn i hate it. my workplace came up with this sch hols promotion espacially for singaporeans, PR, those with work permit and donno wat else lah!! it'S so damn irritating. it'S gd that they are getting 30% off and they are so not co-operating. the terms and conditions to getting this discount is that everyone is to show any of the cards - one card, one discount but do they understand simple english? nOooo .. they even want to fight with us!!!

and i never had my patience tested to the limit at a customer before untill today. there was this angmo lady who was with her bf and that she said that she was a PR (but not her guy). wen i asked to see her identification to show she is a PR, she told me she didnt bring. and if following the company rules no ID no discount. so i didnt giv her any. then she started arguing with me. she threw at me all her cards (nets, credit cards etc etc) but none of them shows any of her ID that she is a PR. when i told her i still cant giv it to her, she suddenly called me stupid!!!! STUPID!!!! OMG!!! i stared at her so hard but still with the fake smile on my face. wen her bf heard that, he asked her to stop it but she kept calling me stupid.
the conversation:
her: you're so stupid you know
me: im sorry? (i was taken aback)
her: you are so stupid for not giving me the discount.
me: im sorry mdm but i have to follow the company rules that is stated here (showing her the terms and condition)
her: thats why you're stupid to follow the rules!!

and while she was cursing at me, i was smiling at her & apologizing!!! i juz couldnt take it. by smiling makes me refrain myself from talking back or screaming back at her. HELLO!!!! you think you're sooo clever .. if so u would have brought along ur PR IC where-ever u go ... duh!! whu leaves their IC at home? b**** .. and since you not paying my salary, shut up and leave .. i think she became paiseh or something when i say she can go see my DM if she's not sastified, but instead, she walked away fast. Since she doesnt respect me as a person, why should i? and to continue smiling at the other customers after that was really a challenge. luckily there was still visitors who made my day better.

this is wat u call really ugly ugly customers .. you think you're angmo i muz be scard of you is it .. argHhhh .. you aint that great yourself.

another day tomorrow to face such customers again ... im starting to hate this promotion. whats more it's going on for the whole mth of June. haiz

tOodlEs 5/27/2006 05:58:00 PM

Went for my SIP interview this morning. reached exactly on time. yay-ness. den i did a big boo-boo .. wont talk about it since it was over. den met ms isabel koh who interviewed me and it went for about 10-15min i think. Rite now she says they need ppl for their f&b outlets but im not into f&b. so i rejected the offer.
so wen she asked wat im into, i say im more into FO or housekeeping and i oso have an interest in events. den she say my resume will be reconsidered again and if they want me they will call for a second interview. 'cross fingers' but she was soo nice. i didnt realy felt nervous wen talking to her only sometimes i cant find the right words to say.
but hopefully fullerton and panpac will call soon.

gotta finish my part of DPD to put in out interim report. and werking for the next 2 days ..

toodles! 5/26/2006 02:32:00 PM

and Samba performance had finally come and go. After practising so much, we were only in the limelight for less than 5mins. haha .. but a really new and great experience for me. =)

and sis finally got a job! at her first last min interview and on the spot, she got in!!! Starting werk on monday at this small law firm. she'll do great there!

Am i being selfish if i wanna continue studying overseas after my poly while sis have to werk and put her continuing studies on hold? im feeling abit bad now!! oHnoOo ..

My SIP interview is tomorrow!! hopefully i'll do great. even now im feeling quite nervous. My portfolio is almost done and hopefully my performance tml will imprese the HR director. wish me luck guys!
If i could clinch a deal and get my placement, i need not worry bout it anymore. 'praying hard & silently'

American Idol is finally over!! woke up early in the morning to watch the finale. haha .. it was a new twist and with all the special guests, it was wonderful!! If u muz kno or already kno, Taylor Hicks won!! no surprise there. Yesterday Taylor really out-sing kat espacially in the last song. but i still love kat nonetheless. Once AI is done, now it's time for SI!! the idol fever is really everywhere. haha

and guez wat, im hungry!! so think i shd get out of sch now to find foooddd!!! haha

Toodles =) 5/25/2006 11:36:00 AM

After the long long wait and the heart attacks that i got everytime the phone rings, someone finally calls!!! yay!! and ... it'S RAFFLES HOTEL!! woohoo ..

so this friday gonna be my interview!! wish me luck guys. already love this hotel and if i love the post they gonna gimmi den i'll surely stay. 'cross fingers and toes' .. 10.45am sharp!

get ready my portfolio
get ready my formal suit
kno everything bout the hotel
plan qns to ask &
pray that god will be at my side the whole time ...


5/23/2006 04:35:00 PM

i've finally concluded. im someone, im not unimporatant anymore and im strong. you may not believe me. who cares but i kno i am. im a fighter.
i fight every wake-ing days of my life. scard that my aorta can suddenly burts keeps me rooted and glad that the sun is shining. you do not kno how it is to sometimes be breathless even wen it'S juz climbing a few steps or running a short distance. dats the reason y i hate stairs and y i dont run even with long legs or y im not into sports. you do not kno how is it for me to always have doctors appointment all the time. for my eyes, heart and backbone. you do not kno wat it feels like taking so many x-rays and going for CT scan nor having backpains due to the metal thingys in ur body. or wat does it feels like to have you lungs punctured one after another or suddenly you heart beat drops to 20beats/sec. nor having to eat sooo many pills in a day.

Eventhough now u kno, u will never understand.

oh well ... NEXT ...

finally watched Da Vinci Code with my bro and sis. It was ok. Some say it was not as good as the book but den rite if the movie was exactly the same as the book, it will take forever to end. like harry potter, i still love the movie. same goes as this. enjoyed every moment of it. didnt even realise that 2 1/2hr have passed. =D
X-men3 & pirates of the carribean on the list next.

Nadi and Tperdayu orientation finally is over. yay-ness. it went ok i guez. had gr8 fun. met new and enthu freshies and it was another memorable day with my Nadians. =)

busy upcming week. performance with samba for the cca awards presentation. i love samba!!! haha .. OB test cming also and prj, prj and prj ...

im so stressed!! everyone been called for interview and confirmed placements. but no one been calling me!! applied for 5 hotels!!! and non of them called yet. in fact not of em' called anyone yet. so i shd be patient still. i want fullerton!!! they finally post fullerton up!!! i was jumping for joy wen i saw it. immediately sent my CV and cover letter there. haha ..
pls someone call me up tml!! been jumping at every phone calls enticipating it's either one of the hotels i applied. haha

toOdles for now!! 5/21/2006 07:13:00 PM

A nightmare i went tru b4 wen someone hates me for nting and goes spreading round rumors is over. At the end of that episode, no one really actually believes her anyway.
but now, history is repeating itself. im so down and out and i guez no one's noticing. no one will understand what im talking about. half of me feels like giving up and juz prays that hopefully this sem zooms by so i can concentrate on my SIP and wish that everything was dream. but the other part of me still lives. for without them, i would never have the strength to move on.

If there's a problem, talk to me. if u never talk to me how would i kno what is happening. talk all you want behind me but if u keep on putting me in the dark, i will never kno and nthing gd comes out of it.

im juz so tired thinking of all this stuff. im having my own stressful problems of my own already. with school (SIP placements) and family, i juz dont kno how i can stand any of this any longer. i cant stand feeling bad and guity for nthing. someone juz talk to me.

ask u guys one thing (to whoever who knows me). am i a bad leader? am i not cut out to lead? am i too weak or juz plain unqualified to learn to lead?

whatever lah.. mayb im just such a worrier. i cant help it but worry about things that is not under my control. i kno what i did and why i did it. period.

but im still down and out. need not cheer me up unless ur sincere to do so.

seems that everyone i asked have gotten placements and been going for lots of interviews. Everyone phones been ringing to confirm the interview dates except mine. Mum asked me to be patient and that the best might yet to come. i hope she's right. she's always been.

god, give me stregth to move forward, to face each day with courage and determination. with ur guidance, show me the way that help me through this path called life. and that you will be with me every step of the way. i need you in my life.

5/17/2006 05:30:00 PM

im late by 35mins but anyway .... to all mothers out there:
HAPPY MOTHERS DAY.

to my mum:
sometimes im juz being too selfish, sometimes i cause u hurt, sometimes i make u worried too much about me and sometimes it seems i didnt care. Im sorry for all the things that i had done that dissapoints you.
but deep inside you will always be my mum and deep inside i truely really care. for all the fun things that we did together and all the long interesting talks we shared and our opinions that we discussed together, i shall cherish those moment - moments i spent with. Thank you for being my mum & dad, being supportive in whatever that i persue in and for your trust you have in me, I LOVE YOU MUMMY DEAREST. thank you for being there and being you.

And about my cover letter and resume, juz started sending it only to two of my top listed places i readlly wanna be in. Hopefully i get a call from them by this week. Mayb tml i be sending two more. May Allah help me in this decision for he who knows whats best for me.

Another week of sch. Now in the process of planning for my sub grp orientation. Hope it'll turn out great. Work is doing fine. I love my job. =) forget the distance. it'S the place that makes it worthwhile. Really test my patience on some occasion with difficult customers but there are still nice ones that makes my day. To see ppl smile at you after servicing them and the way they thank you for such a small job of selling tickets juz makes me realise even more why i am so into the service industry. and the more i believe that the hospitality industry best suits my interest.

juz hope to get by the next few days and months by living each day to the best. Hopefully one of the co. i sent my CV to calls me up. 'cross fingers'

tOodLes 5/14/2006 06:38:00 PM

Thursday once agiain. Just finished a project meeting with my groupmates. We did things progressive-ly i muz say. And they are all fun bunch of people!!! Being serious and and getting our job done was one things but we all, i realise have high self monitoring. We can all be carzy and laugh our heads off. haha .. it might seem that our group is the most quietest one in class but little do they no how different we can be. Im starting to love my group. =) haha

i now got about 2 1/2hr before my CCA meeting. but now im so tired and all i wanna do now is close my eyes and sleep. Even when im sleeping at nite, i dont feel that i am really asleep. Dreams keeps my mind working and yesterday my dream was about my SIP placement. No surprise there for rite now im really stressed about that. Seems like most of the ppl i asked have done and completed their resumes and cover letter and had even sent it. Some even have been called for an interview!!
Just finished mine yesterday at 2am! and my final touch is to put my pix in my resume and i can start sending. haiz .. im really aiming for Pan Pacific. Or juz hotels in general. but somehow my interest doesnt lie in Rits Carlton. SO dont worry about competing with me for that placement. I just hope by the end of this month or before the first week of next month, i would have a confirmed placement.

Yesterday instead of going out with my ex delifrance colleagues, ended up going out with Junita and Kaili. For one i decided to watch Poseidon and one of them dont want to and at last the whole thing was cancelled. I shall rate the movie with 4 stars!! the thrill, the action and everything as a whole will keep you glued to your seat and the screen. You will always wondered what will be their next move. With a touch of sentivity, i almost cried. or was it me who is really too emotional.

Anyway, i think latest i shall post my CV and cover letter by monday morning. gonna be werking 2 days straight. So life tml and the day after gonna be much less the same. wake up early, long train ride to harbourfrnt, den to UWW and den endless queue of tourist and locals (and tml is a public hols + long weekend). Hopefully will get my pay tml. I so broke and to ask mum for money feels so heavy for me. im waiting for the day dat i will be the one giving her money and not the other way round.

tOodLes 5/11/2006 10:41:00 AM

Not me whuse down but my internet connection at home!! Right now im still in school in this god forsaken hrs to print stuff and juz use the internet. Had to do so yesterday as well with Junita for our individual issue presentation. Stayed till 9.30pm!! think today will be as well.

Finally a sigh of relief after my issue presentation was completed!! phew .. didnt do very very well but i think but it was okie. haha .. my paper was shaking when i was holding it!! i couldnt even control my hands nervousness .. lol
Anyway .. it'S over!! 15% covered!!

Minutes ago juz finished SAMBA!! the new CCA that i joined! so fun!! played the ah-go-go bells .. haha. played the entire samba fiesta and it was sooo cool!! enjoyed every minute of it. Still i wanna learnt how to play the snare drums.

And gonna go out tml with MeiZhi, Kaili, Sophie and Hannan. A suddenly outing. haha .. think that Hannan and Sophie are too bored staying at home already. haha ..

Oh and i shall continue on my thoughts of Dramatech first AGM. Firstly, i wanna congratulate them for a job well down. Their skit was short but sweet but was a bit predictable. heez. from where i was seated, i couldnt really see the whole show very clearly at all. so kinda wasted lah. but seeing the other productions that they ever did, this wasnt one of their best. And i dont really like some of the irritating audience who cant appreciate art. haiz .. still, overall it deserve my clap ..

Polling day was over. PAP wins 82 out of 84 seats. PM Lee have his wish for a strong mandate. I would still want PAP to continue to rule Singapore. Seeing what they have done to make Singapore what she is today, and to have other opposition party to juz take over is so wrong. Not that it'S so bad but this opposition party only appears during polling day and expect us to be on their side. They didnt contribute and suddenly keep promising us everything. I dont mind having some opposition party wining some seats for they can contribute new ideas to the parliment. but let PAP still be the strong party and let them rule the country with everyone best interest in mind. If you keep on complaining, try to be in their shoes and see how 'easy' it is to run a country, to be a great leader and be able to think years to come - at least 30years from now.
Actions speak louder than words.

Ok dats it .. labs closing .. toodleS 5/09/2006 02:47:00 PM

Of all days, of all time, the internet access in my house hav to break down. During the time i have to finish up my project reserach for my individual project due this tuesday, luck was not on my side. The internet connection will only be back on wednesday. WEDNESDA!! it will be too late by then.
haiz .. anyway, im juz 70% to complete the assignment and can only finish it up tomorrow in school. haiz. rite now im at werk thats why i have a short access to the net. This is not the first time such unlucky incident happen. I donno who to blame? the connection? Singtel? the modem? haiz ..

The day before yest was the final day of arts fest. and the first AGM for dramatech. update more on dat in the next post.

And yest was when Singapore votes. I want to vote!! by im 1yr too young. haiz .. talk more bout it in my next post oso

till den .. tOoDles 5/07/2006 08:37:00 AM

The second week of school but seems like my first. Finally felt how busy it was at every corridor and how quiet it is wen all of them are in class. Canteens are full and there are not enuf space to eat and you see all the yr one students walk around in groups so they will feel like they belong somewhere.

Futhurmore, arts fest had begun!! Starting today till friday! Every arts group try their best to recruit as many people as possible. It was so kecoh but fun!! haha

I even recruit myself to join samba!! i wanna learnt to play the drums!! hehe .. and add more CCA points and enjoy the last sem of my poly life before i start my SIP.

First tutorial today. First time meeting my classmates and den formed group projects. Had 7 people in our team. consist of : me, huiying, su, junita, pamala. janet and joan. think we gonna be a great team. think anf hopefully all will turn out fine.

tOodles. 5/02/2006 04:01:00 PM