tO everyoNe ... hAppY nEw yEaR ... mAy this new year brings you luck and joy to new beginnings and be far much more better than the previous previous years!!!

Anyway, once again, for this joyous occation that should be celebrated with family and frens, im stuck at werk, working my butt off. hAiz .. no worries. at least im out there earning money than spending unnessesarily. lOl ..

While ppl are out there counting down for the new year, i was going back home. I neveer reali felt alone untill juz now on my way back. Stepped into my hse 5 mins before the end of 2005. So, celebrated the new year with my bro as we count down with the tv .. haha

SO my goals for this new year:

1) score high for my semester exams. better than before.
2) finally deciding on where to go after my poly education
3) be more involved in sch activities so i can write a better resume .. lOl
4) be more closer to mum
5) be able to make my siblings as my closest frens
6) catch up on with my primary and secondary school frens
7) save enough money
8) apply for study loan for overseas study
9) enjoy being nineteen before the big 20 comes.... haha
10) catch up with my other frens that i've rarely meet: sophie, fiza, elisa .. etc etc
11) have a more interesting and fun bday this yr
12) gain alot alot of weight. haha ..
13) start growing shorter
14) unknowingly meet the ONE .. hahaha
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20)
.......................................... there's more act but i'll update the rest of my goals/wishlist for 2006 when my eyes dont feel this heavy. haha

alrighty .. need to rest. hav to werk again tml .. need the energy coz in the morning need to finish up my project!!! hAiz ... life reali is never ending. tOodLes ppl!! 12/31/2005 05:36:00 PM

Been yawning my morning away. haha .. im so restless and exhauted. i have no mood for projects, no mood to read not even to watch tv. I cant sleep and i juz dont kno wat to do. Now it'S 2pm+ and i was planning to do my project act in the afternoon but now im thinking of doing it at night. at 8pm mayb.

Wednesday was a very very long day. Had project meeting from 10am to 4.30pm!!! can u believe it! i cant! i've never have project meeting for soo long! and after that it wasnt over. Had nadi meeting next. till about 5.30 i think. then hang out for awhile with julie, rabz, shahirah and mamat. Was reali glad for that. we had fun at Toys R Us didnt we. lOl .. we were all so deprived of childhood toys. ahahz ..

Somehow i find my life un-exciting. other than sch, there's werk and if not i'll be stuck at home unless someone ask me out. but sometimes if they do, i decline. why? will spend money that im suppose not to and mayb bcoz im not in the mood for fun. haha ..

Oh and something bothered me one of the day. Sometimes you expect a fren to understand your situation. You can joke and stuff but there's a limit to that rite. And worst, i hate hearing people saying this " why are you showing THE face ". Hello!! what face? it's my face and if im unhappy i can jolly well show a face. u cant control how i show my face rite and it'S u who are to blame in the first place. Ironically it'S the other ppl who saw my unhappiness while u sit there trying to joke and talk to me as though ntin happen. Sometimes i feel ur juz irritating. we're frens yes but sometimes i wonder why we are when i sometimes hate ur guts and ur attitude. Whatever ... u aint perfect so im not. Mayb im wrong not to tell and im to blame if u dont kno. but i have the right to tell or not to right. ShEesh ..

*note: above was to release my anger. Not reali to anyone in mind. sori if u think it'S u.

Actually rite. A blog is ur online diary but somehow it'S for everyone to read rite. So act when ur posting a blog, u cant reali say what u feel ............ ok stop ............ i donno why this anger and what the hell im talking ...

Anyway, im slacking as of now. im exhausted. too exhausted mentally and physically. i juz need to escape for now. frm sch, frm werk, frm everything that hav to do with reality. tOodLes ppl! 12/30/2005 07:03:00 AM

While doing my research juz now, my computer broke down. It just switched off by itself while i was typing my stuff!!! And worst, i havent saved anything yet!!! OhNo!!! and the websites that i was browsing tru for info was lost. I tried juz now to find it but i couldnt!!!! i have to re-do all over again. thxs so much comp! ur the 'best'!

And juz now, after maghrib, i went to masjid al-istiqamah with mum and lil sis and bro to listen to a talk by this American scientist who converts into an Islam on 'scientific proof on the existance of god'. As he tells us god existance through science which is why the reason he converts to Islam was reali interesting. As all the scientific proof found, it is already written in the Quran. So the quran is reali a way of life. =)

But for me, i dont need proof. I know he exist and i believe and have faith he exist. Period.

ToODleS 12/26/2005 06:27:00 PM

Meditation in God is my capital

Reason and sound logic is the root of my religion

Love is the foundation of my existance

Enthusiasm is the vehicle of my life

Contemplation of God is my companion

Faith is the source of my power

Sorrow is my friend

Knowledge is my weapon

Patience is my garb and virtue

Submission to the divine will is my pride

Truth is my salvation

Worship is my habit

and in prayers lies the coolness of my eye and the peace of mind 12/26/2005 08:07:00 AM

hAppY boXing Day ppl!!! onli i have no box to open!! so sad!! for both christmas eve and christmas day when everyone else was enjoying the hols spirit, i was stuck at werk, werking non stop till my legs were like glue coz the sales was high!! damn scarily high!! i was sooo exhausted yest that as soon as i got home, i slept and onli woke up at 12pm!! wAh!! i never slept so long b4!! but it was fun since liana was there with me. crazy, happily and my old fren frm camp!

Was thinking of werking again actually for monday and tuesday but ... i havent done any project research and there's too many things that is in need of my attention. And so .. during New yEar eve and new year day .... iM werking again!!! oH how fun my life is. to werk during the public hols juz to earn the extra pay for my life. if onli i have the money .. i wldnt werk. even if i do it'S juz for the experience. hAiZ .. anyone care to donate to me $500 or more every mth to my bank a/c. hahaha ..

let'S see if i have at least $500
$100: transportation (bus&mrt concession)
$100: savings
$200: daily expenses for a mth (food, sch stuff .. etc etc)
$100: giv my mum

yup3 .. so i think $500 shd be enuf. but not im earning much much much less than dat. sObsOb

oH well .. im tired. werking for 3 days straight w/out proper break is tiring. hAiz .. tml den i think i'll start on my prj research ...

to complete:
MICE research
FM learning issues
FBO research
Service project
Creative writing short story
Creative writing monolog
Creative Writing presentation preparation


See .. so many things and so lil time!!! Im dying soon!!!

oK ppl .. lemmi rest before i really break dwn. tOoDleS .... 12/25/2005 06:32:00 PM

Everyone is going overseas!! to enjoy life outta spore and to enjoy the snow!!! some i kno going USA, Korea, Japan, Hong Kong ..... and me? Stuck in Tampines. Going to werk on Christmas and going to school for projects. If im at home, do ntin but research. How interesting can life get?? pLs someone ... SAVE ME!!!

I think im falling sick. oHNo!! brainy! u pass ur germs to me!!! not now pls. i cant fall sick now. not untill after 1'st April. lOl

And delifrance bistro hav change it's concept once again ... to ... full table service. Is it gd or bad. oH well .. there's the pros and cons of everything.

And yest went back to TAS ... for consultation. We got our golden tree!!! wahaha .. yAy!!!

den after doing project for 5hrs, me, huiying and peiling went to meet up w/ regina for a mgic show call The Magic of Love. Actually it's a story cum musical cum magic show. I was interested in it due to its magic show and finally it was act about this church service. but i enjoyed it nonetheless eventhough wen they read their prayers and stuff. It's amazing to see eventhough we believe in a different religion but it brings us to a same path - To be able to receive god's love. And no matter whom you believe ur god is, having faith and believe keeps one alive and strong knowing that god will always be there for u in times of happiness, sadness or difficulty. There was really a lesson behind the musical magic show after all.

Anyway, im werking later on eventhough i feel i dowan to. I always dont feel like werking ... wahaha ... im quitting soon i think. Mayb end of next mth. We'll see.

Here are some pixs to enjoy ...


me and pei ling


the bookworms .. lOl


pinky & the brain .. guez whos who .. =D


me and su: seems like im so hapi to get strangled


in TAS classrm for consultation


told u earlier my grpmates are crazy - we are too stress lah .. haha


i lyke the bear box .. guez wats in it ...


cristmas cards!! the one w/ the santa was frm my vietnamese fren and the other was frm sIokKiE!!


the cookies i baked at 1am!!! lOl

tO one and all, MERRY CHRISTMAS AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!
TOOdLEZ ... 12/24/2005 04:10:00 AM

Term tests over!!!

Projects ... Here i come

... wahahaha ...

thxs siOkkIe dearie for the christmas card and the ornament. Pei Ling aka the chicken little oso wanna say thxs!!!!! we wanna give u a hug *hUgGieZzzz* for remebering us!!! =)

tO An - my vietnamese fren, thxs thxs thxs!! ( eventhough u dont read my blog ) she sent me, huiying and flannery a christmas card each!!! from vietnam!!! and it was hand made!!! will show it to ya wen i take the pix. =)

cHristmaS iS in tHe Air!!!!!!!

tralalalala- lala- lala

tooDleSsssss ... (",) 12/21/2005 06:02:00 AM

Accounts test was juz now. Finally! after remebering 23 formulas .. yes .. 23!!! im quite proud to say i can pass! haha .. but i wanna do better than pass. i need to do better. seriously. my class test results sucks. .... and thxs di!!!! love you to bitz .. thxs for studying w/ me since forever. ur the best! and my dearest fate too.

Anyway, sat and sunday been studying non stop. Sat had to go for AMP first for this bursary thingy and rush to the airport to meet di and fate. wen i arrive at 4.30pm, they were done! they were done w/ revising both chapters and already did the mock paper. NoOoOoo .. but it'S ok .. they let me study alone first den we went tru everything tog. =) at 7.30pm, we head off to di hse!! yup2 .. for dinner! we had the famous nasi lemak. her mum nasi lemak is fantabulous! really .. after dat fate and her guy went off but i stayed back to study w/ di untill 11pm. hehe

the next day, fate didnt join us. i went to di hse at 12pm to study but we actually started at 3! after i watched CSI .. lol ... den we study and study and study till 7.30pm for legally blond and then study and study and study again till 10.30pm. by that time had 23 formulas stuck in my brain!!!! haha .. it was worth it!

Juz now ate at ITAS canteen!!! WaH .. so cool!! everything looks so nice. im spoilt for choices. so jakun like dat. but cant blame me wat. i've been at tourism academy where the food sucks. wahaha ..

and tml, after the paper, gonna celebrate by .... seeing the doctor!!! oH great .. my normal check ups .. how fun is it being me... stuck w/ doctors all my life. siGh .. while my frens go celebrate for finishing the papers, me .... haiz .... so much for loving myself. hope dat there's no change in the results.

and juz now i couldnt study for FBO!!! to tired!!! my mind couldnt werk! so exhausted! So after 3 hours of struggling, i finally gave in, went home and sleep. now .. im geared up to memorise!!! tOoDleZ ppl!!! wish me luck for tml! 12/19/2005 01:31:00 PM

SJCC D&D


our D&D ballroom


us getting ready for D&D


siying hand presenting our food .. onli our first round!! lOl


audrey, su, me and nadz


frm left: siying, jocelyn, audrey, nad, me and su


mY mystery prize!! ( dinner for 2 at Grand Copthorne Waterfront ) im going w/ mummy!! wanna treat her like royalty for once. =)


my yummy cakes .. i wasnt able to finish all. =( too full ready. haha

Group Meeting


grp meeting - so hardwerking!!!


after huiying and joey left


lil mermaid .. heHe

Presentation


during MICE tutorial .. hehe


my crazy grpmates


told ya that they're crazy .. haha

RITZ


my food .. looks nice rite .. IT WAS!! hehe


me, my main course and my mocktail .. yUmmY! are u getting hungry? wahahaha


for dessert: tiramisu w/out coffee liquor .. double yummy


after meal drink .. hehe


ms daga ( she's cute rite! ) with me and nadz


my candies: frm dearie fate and my wonderful sis!!





dats all folks .. hope u've enjoyed it!!!!tOoDles 12/16/2005 04:52:00 PM

IM FULL!!! im stuffed!! i cant eat another bite anymore! wahahaha .. and now, i want to sleep coz my stomach is so heavy and im getting a headache. 'bUrpZ' xcuse me.

Ate at RITS juz now. had nice soup for starters, big salmon w/ mashed potatoes for main course and tiramisu for dessert. then there's the mocktail and tea. i feel bloated now. even typing this is hard!!! ohWell .. next entry then. tOodLez .. 12/15/2005 07:09:00 AM

Currently in sch lab .. waiting for lecture to start and in the mean time thought of updating wats been going on in my boring and dull life. haha .. read if u muz if not there's always the red button with the cross at the side for u to press. lol .. anyway, monday had my lodging presentation. phew .. finally. one down and 3 more to go! wahaha ... but i muz say we did a great job! so long since i wore my formal suit and i love the feeling. haha .. crazy rite.

I LEFT MY HP AT HOME!!! im being paranoid rite .. haha . i can survive one day w/out hp but it feels funnie ..

last sunday, watched TV the whole time while preparing for my presentation. Watched Iklas - TAA thingy while at the same time watched Mohabbatein - a very very very nice hindustan movie. I was crying my eyes out at some part. It's a miracle eventhough i've watched it several times before, i still cry. haha .. can i have samir as my future boyfren? lol .. his damn sweet!!! haha .. karan's not bad too .. i dont mind having any of these two guyz. wahaha ..

about the presentation on monday, our group was bombarded with non stop qns frm the teacher and i think espacially to me since im the Rocky Goodview, HR of the hotel. haha ... but i muz say great job to my grp members! think she loved our presentation and curious with our Le D'Cruz hotel. Thats the reason with the non stop qns. haha .. but how come the groups after ours were not asked so much stuff? mayb theirs were too boring. lol .. im bad!!! or mayb they covered everything that there was ntin to ask. shit! lets juz wait and see .. hopefully it turn out for the better for all of us. HeHe

And yesterday was once again deplyment ot golf club. hated going at first. was hoping hard that i will fall sick and get MC and skip it altogether. siokkie took MC so left tian, me and mel. surprisingly, we had fun! really. lionel wasnt there so mayb thats the reason. and actually we had to report at 9.30 but we had breakfast at mc and talked and talked and finally reached golf club at 10.30am!!! haha .. then for the time we reached till bout 3pm, we set tables for functions and folded many types of napkins! now i kno 4 cool types of folds while the guy who taught us knows more than 100 folds!!! cool rite! was so impressed. and after doing all that and having lunch, we slacked and talked and walked ard and slacked some more. shhhh .. act we shdnt do that. it's bcoz no one was there to take care of us, we did wat was to be done. wahaha .. but time passed real fast compared to last week. hopefully our last weerk there will be more fun and memorable as yest. heez ...

The exams is like days away and im still not yet studies. gonna hav to papers but im more worried for accounts. more than 20 formulas to memorise!!! how? im dead ... Di!!!! u muz help me!!! study together k .. same place same time. haha .. and fate too!! join us join us! and once again the junk buddies will get together. haha

i kno i promised pictures of the D&D .. but like no time to upload. will do it soon. promise but not sure wen. so muz stay tune. haha .. alrighty .. lecture starting .. so tOodleZ ... =D 12/14/2005 06:38:00 AM

i hate going to all this family gathering esp with that mojojojo ard. damn him. juz keep ur comments to uself if u kno u can never ever ever will be able to do a single damn thing. ur not perfect so aint ur family. oh pls .. if ur dat perfect y does everyone hates u .. yes damn it .. everyone hates u if u didnt notice.

mayb it's not my place to say coz im not there but on behalf of wat my siblings and mum are feeling, i hate u for hurting us and i hate for u being part of us and i hate it that we are related.

the onli thing that i look for in this gathering is my cuzzins. and for the sake of my mum i come. if not .. u think i care? not a bit. to hear ur 'perfect' family example and what not. u suck. period.

and ohNo .. there's more family gathering to come .. i juz wanna stay away frm u .. we all are. juz dont ever mess with us. u labeled us as the problem family. but guez wat .. i love my 'problematic family'. so get over it. even if they are a problem to u but to me they will always be a part of me and forever they are perfect in my eyes. if u hate my family den u can juz get lost and shut the hell up!

*this goes to everyone ... to accept my family as who we are for they are my life and they come first even wen they are sometimes irritating









sori ppl ... to much hatred up there. u oso dowan kno wat it'S about. ask me if u wanna. and today after so long i was back at werk. and guez wat? i heard sumting ... delifrance bistro is changing to full table service starting end of this mth. wahaha .. ezier job for me .. for the cashier!! except if they let me serve ... den .. but i doubt it .. i hav to stay bhind the counter. oH weLL ...

it'S 4.30am and im wide awake .. ASY!! go SLEEP!! i got a prj meeting tml at 10am and im gonna be half awake!!! too much things running in my mind i supose but that's life rite.

toOdleS ppl ... hope ur life is far less complicated than mine ... lOl ... 12/10/2005 09:29:00 PM

NAD!!! u rock! yup3 ... she juz bought the BSB tixs for both of us! wOohOo!! i didnt kno u were such a crazy fan! lOl .. yup3 .. BSB are coming to Singapore!!! i kno u kno but i juz wnna shout it out! this 24th January @ Singapore Indoor Stadium! and im going with Nad!!! yEaHhhh ...

ok ..enuf getting excited. now im stress with presentation for the lodging project tat we juz submitted yest. and it'S this monday, 10am! oHmAn .. but i think our report turned out great if i cld say so myself. All thxs to my hardwerking and super cool grpmembers even we may squabble and disagree alot during meetings and discusssions but it turned out well didnt it. HehE .. oH and talking about my grp now, i love all of em' many many but can i ask those of my grp members now and before .. am i a perfectionist? sometimes i even feel that i am coz u kno evensince i heard this motto ' near enuf is not good enuf ', i agreed that if u want a great final work, dont juz think 'ok lah .. it's almost perfect' ... if u want it to be great then do ur best to make it great. should i drop this motto frm my head? hmmm ... i donno. comments?

ANyway, last thursday nite went to the SJCC ( singapore jr. chef club ) dinner and dance gala. wOAh .. my first time going to such event and it was great .. HehE .. eventhough the entertaiment kinda .. erm .. suck. but the food there, super awesome. There were yummy pasta, cakes, mussles, oysters, prawns, fishes ( diff variety of it! ), sushi, diff kinds of bread ( more than at delifrance! ), ice cream and even a chocolate fountain!!! i was in chocolate heaven!!! but wat was great is that i won a lucky dray mystry prize no. 5!!!! wanna kno wat it is? wait till my next entry .. lOl ..

ok i gotta go finish up my presentation and later get ready for work ... i dowan go!! im too tired to go!! but i need money!! so im going .. haha .. alrighty ppl. take care and tOodLes! 12/10/2005 04:43:00 AM

Hated my deployment last tuesday!!! Frankly, it's a waste of time!! it'S juz better juz stay in RITZ. luckily it's on for 2 more session or else i'll kill myself. can i skip and not go at all? but then but then i dont have the heart to. The onli fun thing that happened during my deployment at the Sentosa Golf Club was the tour on the buggy ard Serapong and Tanjong golfing area and for the fact i did learnt something.... which is skirt-ting. hehe. quick, ask me ask me wat is it! other than that, i was slowly rotting. my legs was so tired coz we cant sit down. Been stading for more than 8hrs and it's actually more tired standing doing ntin than doing sumting. ArGhHhhHh .. i dowan nxt tuesday to come so fast!!! pls lemmi fall sick!!!

On Monday, had accounts test .. it was hard! very hard!! the theory qns was soooo extremely difficult!!! i juz crap my way tru and with the short period of time to write, i dont think i covered all the points. hAiZ ...

And finally our lodging report is done! but havent prepare for presentation. hopefully our report is tip top. i love it so much! HeHe .. hopefully the teacher does too .. and juz now had nadi meeting and we got our roles for an outside production in March and also for Pentas in coming April. Fast right .. but i cant wait for it!! esp Pentas. my first experience was memorable and im looking forward for this yr one.

And tml is the SJCC D&D. so im not going for any lectures but going back TP for awhile w/ su to print our project report due on friday. Then, go home change to my dress and juz go sch for accounts tutorial and then head off to Orchard Hotel w/ my frens to enjoy ourselves. YaY .. will update but it tml w/ pictures!!!

OK .. im dead. it's 4am and im still wide awake. Edited the report and watched CSI for awhile and now i sooo shagged. but i havent do my accounts tutorial qns!! how? mayb tml. b4 i go sch. im too tired to think! nitez ppl. tOoDlez ..

tO syahid: safe journey to NS tomorrow .. oh today. we in nadi will miss u. haha

p/s to julie: remember i dont like oso .. lOl .. 'winks' 12/07/2005 08:55:00 PM

PEACE AND QUIET AT LAST!!! wOohOooo .. hahaha .. i cant believe im so evil!! u muz be wondering wat the hell im shouting in excitment about ... well ... mum and my 3 youngest siblings are away for 3 whole days starting yest. wahahaha ... they went to KL for a 'holiday' leaving the 3 eldest at home. Not that im being that bad but if u too have 6 siblings u will understnad. And im enjoying every single second of it!!! no fightings, no noisy irritating arguments between those 2 youngest and total peacefullness to do my projects and sch werk. 'sMilEz' But with mum gone as well without any fd stocks in the hse, i've been like buying food for breakfast, lunch and dinner ..

Anyway, finished and handed up facilities mgt assgn last friday and now i can see y the esplanade is superly cool. haha. right now rushing for lodging ops project and it's really the first ever prj that is soooo rushing. haha .. imagine doing a project where by u are given a complicated pbl about hotels and muz do the neccessary stuff in less than 4 weeks. ohMaN .. think Mr Nair is smiling rite now. haha ..

And juz now went my first ever NE talk .. LOL .. something about .. erm .. i got no idea wat it was about but it seems to be like i studied for my GC. and i accidentally doze off at the latter part of the talk. wahaha .. and i didnt kno that discovery ctr was on a revamp? hmmm .. but it looks more interesting now. =D

Oh and if u go sentosa and wanna see a beautiful sight, go to TAS during sunset. Me, audrey and su we stayed on friday in sch till about 7pm due to project and wen we wanna go home, the view there was breathtaking .. really .. with the lightings and the natural surrounding, i can really juz sit there and soak up everything. Eventhough we left at 7pm, but i finally reach home at 11pm ... bcoz had dinner with them at bistro delifrance frm bout 7+ till 10pm. we were laughing and laughing our heads off untill we think that the servers thought that we are carzy to be laughing for 2.5hrs non stop. hahaha... love them both!

MICE project is out!!! haha .. im so excited! this is the first time im excited for a prj! y? becoz it's MICE and i love MICE .. nope, im not carzy .. i reali do ...

Alrighty, i really need to finish up my part for lodging prj b4 my grp members kills me .. and im hungry!!! can someone pls sent me some food to my door step? i'll be so grateful ... haha ... tOoDleZzz ... 12/03/2005 05:17:00 PM