I should really stop reading. Once i get started on a book, then i cant put it down. Even if i did i cant stop imagining what will happen next or in the end even when i can predict it. Can i be one of the characters in this trilogy i've juz finished reading. Can i be like Malory with the gift of art and beauty or like Dana, with the gift of knowledge or like Zoe, with the gift of valor/courage.

Like Zoe, i want more than i have now. Not that im not grateful but for the fact i kno i can achieve more while people keep under-estimating as i've been under-estimating myself. I just want a fairy tale ending. Is it too much to ask for? mayb it is .. for someone like me .. i dont think i really deserve it. Mayb others need that type of ending more than i do. Oh well ..


Another upcoming busy month. With new production which is all the way at Chua Chu Kang!!! and with projects due and presentations coming and with werk stuck in between all of that .. it'll be a miracle if i dont drop dead before the month of July ends ..

ToodlEs 6/30/2006 05:49:00 PM

Had Nadi outing yest!! was thinking of updating earlier but was waiting for the pixs first complimentary from J.D ... hehe .. thxs gurl!

In total there were 15 of us!!! the actual meeting time shd be 2.30pm .. but wen i reach there on the spot only syafiq and julez were there .. one by one the rest came and guez wat time finally did everyone came .... 3.30pm!!! 'faints'

Went to watch movie and finally sadly they decide on just my luck .. but i dont mind watching it again since it's with gr8 company .. but .. den wen we wanna buy the tix there was no more seats and the movie the had seats for all 12 of us (the other 3 didnt watch) was She Is The Man!!! and it was hilariously funnie!! better than Just My Luck .. in my opinion lah. It was sooo cool to book the whole row for $114!!! hehe ..

Since the movie was at 5.20pm, we went to eat but had to sit into grps of 4 .. hehe .. but it was cool. =) After the movie, mamad, rabz and farhan went to PS for a creative fair thingy while the rest of us tout of going to the Esplanade. before that head of to al-falah mosque for maghrib. By the time we wanna go there only left me, julez, suhaila, parvin, aisha, syafiq, haikal and shahid. met azimah baby dere. Upon reaching, some of us went to eat while the other went to watch the free weekend show. Me .. i ate. Hungry k and had a nice chat with the other 3 gurls. Act we wanna eat satay but den it was 'sold out' .. humph .. dowan talk bout it.

Then, by the time it was 10+pm so we decided to head hme but instead of walking via the undergrd pass, we walked above ground .. haha .. it's so nice!!!

We shd do it agn guys ... before my SIP!! really had fun throughout!!! mayb ice skating or go cycling at pulau ubin aite. hehe ..

and pixs are below!!!


tHe guYs


tHe GurlS paRt 1


the gUrlS pArt 2


grP Pix 1


gRp pIx 2


met dessy on our wae home


and school's starting tml!!! nOoOo .. im not quite finish with my projects and stuff!!! pls gimmi a week more!!! the sooner sch ends the faster SIP starts .. not that im looking forward to it rite now. oh well .. whatever it is .. cya all ard in sch!! busy weeks cming ahead!!

tOodlEs 6/25/2006 04:40:00 PM

taken from one of the backstreet boys albums, i wanna dedicate this song espacially to my mum and also to those who are called mum.

dont ask me why suddenly whats with this entry but everytime i listen to this song, it juz pulls at my heart. a way to say thank you to her which i dont really say it that often enuf.

and so ...

THE PERFECT FAN

It takes a lot to know what is love
It's not the big things, but the little things
That can mean enough
A lot of prayers to get me through
And there is never a day that passes by
I don't think of you
You were always there for me
Pushing me and guiding me
Always to succeed

[Chorus:]
You showed me
When I was young just how to grow
You showed me
Everything that I should know
You showed me
Just how to walk without your hands
Cuz mom you always were
The perfect fan

God has been so good
Blessing me with a family
Who did all they could
And I've had many years of grace
And it flatters me when I see a smile on your face
I wanna thank you for what you've done
In hopes I can give back to you
And be the perfect son

[Chorus]

You showed me how to love
You showed me how to care
And you showed me that you would always be there
I wanna thank you for that time
And I'm proud to say you're mine

[Chorus]

Cuz mom you always were,
Mom you always were
Mom you always were,
You know you always were
Cuz mom you always were... the perfect fan

I love you Mom

ToOdlEs 6/25/2006 10:39:00 AM

What my stars says:

Putting up walls between yourself and the people you love is not a good idea right now -- you need to keep those healthy connections alive, and the best way to do so is to keep it real and engage in some secret-sharing. However, when it comes to your public relationships, you need to make sure your walls are sturdy and high. Create a buffer you can hide behind. Protecting your privacy should be a major goal right now -- not everyone deserves your trust.

havent i been doing dat? i think so coz i think no one really knows who i really am. If you think you kno me then i say it's only a maximum of 30% of my true self. But mayb i dont want to put the walls down even wen i hav to cause i might have to bring it up again and it'S gonna be hard work. But wat if i did put down? wont i risk myself getting hurt?

Anyway, went to friendster and read again all the testi that my frens had written and most of them made me smile once again. But .. do what they really write is true? haha .. you can be the judge. For me, im juz glad to have that kind of frens in my life. =)
6/23/2006 01:48:00 PM

i finally emailed ms rozie that i shall accept and work in E-Ventions for my SIP. im not gonna lie and say im very happy with my decision but for now i shall take what being thrown at me and make the best out of it.

And on sunday at werk suddenly i had a shock of my life. not a bad one though. Had this two Italian guys who bought tickets from me and suddenly they suddenly commented i have beautiful hands .. haha
i was sooo shocked and didnt believe my ears untill they repeated what they said. very very surprisingly weird .. i've always thought i have very long, thin, ugly hands and i still do. Firstly i thought they were juz being nice but then about 2 hrs later had another lady customer who said exactly the same thing. i still cant figure it out .. but nonetheless they made my day. haha

Rite now im addicted to the stories of The Quinn Brothers by Nora Robert. There are 4 different titles but are connected to each other whereby each title tells a story about the 4 brothers but at the same time continues with the last. Im not making sense am i but if u start reading you juz wont put the books down - which is happening to me now. I have to force myself to put it down in order to finish up my prjs and assignments.
how i wish my life is a story book coz i kno it will always have a happy ending.

Sea Swept - about Cameron Quinn (beginning of the story - 1st bro)
Rising Tides - about Ethan Quinn (2nd bro)
Inner Harbour - about Philip Quinn (3rd bro)
Chesapeake Blue - about Seth Quinn (4th bro)

One thing weird happens when i start reading is that i can be totally engrossed in it and forget about my surroundings. I can really imagine being in the book and hate it when someone juz interrupts me reading. Mayb through reading brings me away far from reality and to laugh and cry while reading - to just feel what the characters are going through is something not everyone can really experience.
weird as it sounds but it's juz me. i can juz waste a day away and getting lost in a really good book.

which what im gonna do now ..

tOodleS
6/19/2006 07:15:00 PM

Father's Day was over but it have been over for me for the last 9 years. Before that wen ppl have asked what am i buying i would either smile, say i dont kno and walk away or try changing the subject. The only gift that i can give him now is my prayers for him and by keeping the little memories i had of him alive.

Sometimes in life you cant always get what you want. Even when you want it so badly, you juz have to let it go and hope that the next door that opens for you will be for the best. Everyting that happens, happens for a reason rite and that what i shall believe.

6/19/2006 06:18:00 AM

The final season for Charmed was shown two days ago and how i really loved it! Everyone was there and they ended off everything by telling what happened in their future. Future Wyatt is sooo handsome and 'Uncle' Coop is not bad either! haha ..
Anyway, been a fan of Charmed eversince their first season up till now -Season 8. Im so dissapointed that there will not be any more new upcomign seasons but im glad how everything worked out in the end for all three sisters. A happily ever after. =)

About my interview to Conrad, it was alright i guez. Could and might get the position i want but as usual, another difficulty arises .. they might ask me to take off my 'tudong'. And .. i shall not do it no matter how desperately i want this dream of mine, to work in the Front Office to come true. Wearing the 'tudong' is part of my belief and principle and i shall in no circumstances compromise on it. Hopefully they do change my mind and accept me even with the 'tudong' . 'crossing my fingers'.
Whatever it is, people have to accpet me for who i am and what im capable of and not what i wear. Doesnt mean by wearing 'tudong' i wont be able to perform my best like any others .. this rule same goes to other companies anywhere. but somehow im having doubts but what i have learnt throughout my 20 years of life is to continue to have fate, faith and hold on to my dreams. That is what i shall continue to do no matter how long it takes.
If they do not get back to me by monday afternoon, i shall accept E-Vention. Still, to work in a hotel remains my first passion.

And juz now had the group outing!! it has been sooo long since we all really got together! There was me, audrey, su, nad, peiling, huiying and joey. The whole gang!! Went Marina Sq to eat, crap, hang out, played bowling and pool. Had a totally enjoyable day! Then wen audrey, nad and su hav to leave, the four of us continued to hang out till bout 10pm . Love them all .. Couldnt ask for better friends than them. =) pixs will be up soon wen huiying sent em' to me.

another prj meeting tml and later the same day, dramtech production - Dreamscape 3.0 .. cant wait to watch it. Expecting it to be great! haha

And my laptop is going bonkers. Everytime i use it for 1/2hr, it will suddenly shut down by itself!! it's sooo irritating esp wen im halfway doing research. anyone wanna spare me $2600 to buy a new laptop? haha

alrighty .. back to 3 prj research .. tOodLes! 6/15/2006 05:18:00 PM

FINALLY!!! was about to lose all hope and cling onto fate and faith. suddenly at 6.43pm my hp rang with a weird no. on it. and guez who called ... a hotel!! to be precise ... Conrad Centennial!! i was so excited like the time Raffles called.

And my interview is tomorrow!! hopefully the offer me FO and/or hsekeeping. pls no F&B if not events here i come. =/ help pray for me .. i really really wanna werk in a hotel. been my passion and my goal.

will update on wat happen. tOodleS ..

to su: congrats for getting CAAS
to nad: congrats to u too for SLG
to brainy: congrats for Orchard hotel

and my bro, khairul anwar ... hAppY bELatEd 18th bDay!! finally legal .. haha .. take care always bro!!


6/12/2006 05:54:00 PM

this is wat my horoscope for today says:

Sometimes you just have to go on faith. You're at a crossroads right now -- and time is running out. You need to decide soon which way you're going, and you won't have the luxury of knowing all the information you want to know about your options. The good news is that you're in a very solid lucky phase, and your instincts can fill in the blanks and help you take a calculated risk. So even if you're not completely sure, go in the direction that just feels the most comfortable now.

i so can relate to the advice given. Still i hoping for the best. I might not get what i want but mayb it'S for the best.

toOdles
6/10/2006 04:04:00 PM

A really nice date today. eventhough some do not really agree. the day of the devil or something due to the number 6. oh well .. but i still think it'S a nice number. 060606 .. go do something memorable today so that this date/day will be remembered as one of your special day. haha

Anyway, been a long time since i last blogged. lots of things have happened but right now im busy helping mum. She opening her own store online. and im helping her with it. So e-business. haha .. actually quite cool except when it came down to the shipping, taxes and all that got to do with money, im lost! anyone can help?

Let me summaries what happened in my daily life so far.

Firstly, no company is calling me!! im freaking out as the days passed. why? is wearing the tudong the reason - even when i try not to think that it is. but the duedate to get an SIP placement is near!! pls save meeee ..

Then had the first nadi training. unexpectedly the no. of ppl who came was quite alot. hopefully they stay. some of them are really so fun and enthu.

Next, term test is this week. actually should be sitting for my one and only paper tml. but .. i got samba performance tomorrow for the graduation ceremony. sooooo i got approved LOA and i nid not take the paper!! one disadvantage is that this 15% will be put forward to my end sem paper. so my end sem paper for OB will be 55%!!!

About samba, yesterday went for custume hunting. hehe .. so fun. Went to this costume store near Arab street. They finally decided on what we should wear and i think is super funnily interesting. haha .. my first time performing on stage with costumes and at TCC!!! cant wait!

hmmmm ... wat else happened ...

oh ya and lastly, got scolded by another customer again!!! haiz .. this is what you get for werking in the service industry. customers are always right even when clearly it'S their fault.

alrighty den .. more crappings of my interestingfully boring life coming up. haha

ToodlEs 6/06/2006 08:38:00 AM