My day today. According to the Islamic calender, 10th Muharram was the day i was born. Soo .. Selamat Hari Asyurah, Asyurah. wahahahaha.

Anyhoo .. finally the first day of school todae!!! oh how fun it was!! i could literally taste the freedom and practically touch happiness. hahaha .. yes im being overdramatic here but who cares!! Im back to school!

Anyway, KL was fun!! Though i was somehow buried in my portfolio here and there but i did enjoy myself. The hotel room that we got which i shared with Rita & Nona is humongously huge. haha. Went to petaling street for a bit of bargaining and shopping of bags .. haha and back to the hotel for the continuation of my portfolio. SO much for a holiday. But i dont mind. Get to watch the match between Spore & Msia!! WoohOoo .. go lions!! haha. Continuing on, spent most of my time with Nona and Nina (wondrful ladies) and sometimes Zarina and Ayu (also wonderful ladies).
Oh and regards to the flora fest that was the main purpose of the trip, it was ookkkaaayyy .. haha. Not bad .. some floats are really nice but sadly since we came late, didnt get the chance to get a good view of it all.
Second day started at Sungai Wang Shopping Centre with Nona, Nina and Mr AB. Then after check out, went to a chocolate factory ... but i was totally broke to buy anything. sobsob.only managed to get a box of durian choc. From there, straight back all the way to spore. Reaching about 8pm on sunday. Pixs of the trip will be up soon coz now, im totally shagged and i need sleeppppp .. nitez. toodlez!! 1/29/2007 03:00:00 PM

Ofically, SIP is finally over!!! Phew ... 'five minutes of silence pls' ......


...after five minutes...

'jumping with joy' .. im sooo proud of myself for being to stay this strong for this long. waha. back to sch, back to freedom, back to my normal life and back to having a life. hahahahaha.

Anyway, i think im advertising this early but Pentas this year gonna be fantabulous!!! wahaha. believe me that this time it will be worth every penny

anyway, portfolio is still half done and tonite im off to KL!! dammit!! i so dont have the motivation as yet to complete it. I keep writing the same stuff over and over and when i re-read everything, it sounds totally crap!! I lost my touch in report writing!!! ArgHHHHhhhhh

no worries though. i still will complete it on time. =)

till monday then!! waha. toodles!! 1/26/2007 11:47:00 AM

Totally surrea. Today is officially my last day. yupyup!! it's already the 26th Jan!! God!! time flies. Im feeling sooo elated! haha.

Rite now im still packing while writing my final e-journal. waha. yes ppl im off & away tml nite to KL. and i've NOT finished my portfolio. gd luck to you asy! lolz. Msg me if u wana but no calls pls unless u wana sponsor my phone bill for that.

But im glad its over. Dont cry coz it's over but be happy because it happened. So im definately not crying any tears but will walk away with a huge grin on my face. hahahaha.

Okie. shall blog more soon. E-journal to complete, then packing and my portfolio!! Too many stuff to do and too little time!

Toodlez! 1/25/2007 06:53:00 PM

Quick go check the calender and see whats the day today .. or better .. the date!! muahahahahahahaha

That aside, do you ever sometimes feel that you should said something or have commented this and that and react the other way or plainly juz wish you had done and said something when it happened?

Truthfully i had. Think countless of times. But as what they always say, never live your life in regrets and what ifs. Easy said than done.

Anyway, wasted one night today. I forgot my thumbdrive at werk!!! ARgH! all my portfolio content and my half done e-journal 5. This means ... no sleep for me tml. gotta finish all of it by fri!
Ironically as much as i want fri to end but due to this 2 submissions im wishing it to go slower .. also for Zila sake as well. waha.

Since i reali cant do anything tonite .. early to bed!! since i wont be getting any sleep tml. haiz.

oh .. and i brought myself a very very early bday prezzie. and now im broke. will show it soon. 'grins'

tOodleS 1/24/2007 02:03:00 PM

Time check: 3am

Portfolio bout 1/2 done. Still got my last e-journal to do. vivo-ing with younger sis tml i think.

Anyhoos, an advice i shd take note of :-

You are capable and intelligent, and you know it -- so why do you feel the need to prove it to anyone else? Do not worry about what other people think of you right now, because their opinions have no influence over you (or at least they shouldn't). These people do not know the real you, so let go of your concerns about how you fit in. Your anxiety is causing you to take on more self-conscious energy, and that could snowball into a streak of negative self-esteem

Toodlez 1/20/2007 08:02:00 PM


No im not crazy nor late in wishing a happy new year coz in fact, today IS the new year according to the Islamic calender. Thus to all muslims worlswide, Salaam Ma'al Hijrah. Smoga dalam tahun baru ini membawa keberkatan kpd semua. Amin.

Anyhoos, yest had the worst nite of my life. My back, whr it was op-ed at, hurts damn lots!! At one point of time, it surpresses my chest and lungs that i found it hard to breath. Wanted to fast since it was 1st Muharram today but when mum woke me up, i couldnt move! God, it hurts sooo much! Really felt like opening up my back and removing the metal thingy. Luckily there was this thing call painkillers .. bless those who found em'. waha

Planning to go to TPs open hse today. We'll see if sis can wake up on time. Waha.

I got tons and bucket full of pixs to upload and display!! waha .. soon ... i'll try to make it soon!!

Toodles 1/20/2007 02:53:00 AM

Dear god,

For this last week of mine, pls make it as painlessly as possible. I had enuf of being looked down at and being blamed and being told off in frnt of everyone. It had been an enriching experience so far but i could not see myself this way long. It had been a challenging 5 months and how i wish it could end already.

I miss sch and all my wonderful frens and the feeling of freedom & not being judged for mistakes I make. Isnt internship a place to learn? Doesnt everyone makes mistakes? Doesnt everyone forgets? Aren't we all human?
If i didnt make any mistakes how can i learn? and everytime if i did and get blamed & damned for it, how i not be afraid?

Im so tired of all this. Im tired of playing pretend. Im tired of not being able to be me. Im tired of having to motivate myself every morning. Im tired of looking at my fake smile. Im tired of trying to feel alright.

On a seperate note dear god, i sometimes wonder where my path is leading me to. Sometimes it seems i could not see the light at the end of the tunnel. If i did it would juz my imagination. Therefore dear god, pls be with me every single step of my journey. Never even for one blink of the eye to leave me on my own. Give me the strength i need. Embrace me with your love and help strengthen my faith, my wisdom and will.

Bless me and my family. Give strength to my mum for having to raise the six of us on her own. T my siblings, help them tru all challenges that is fated to them and be with them too every step of the way.

I thank you for what you have given me so far. I know that everything happens for a reason and that you know what is the best for me. Im grateful to be where i am - Having a big family i can go crazy and talk to. A mum whom i can share my joy and sorrow with. Friends whom have helped me tru times of need and time of happiness. A life that have made me grow to someone im sure my parents are proud of.

Amin.




and so yesterday sis went to watch Il Divo live at the Indoor Stadium. I would go wit her but im totally broke. Im saving up for a new hp and im intending to watch Phantom of The Opera. Anyone interested as well?? heez
But i did get to see some videos that my sis took. Their voices juz blew me away!! If Josh Groban would make a concert here, without a doubt i'll go!! no matter if it burns a huge hole in my pocket! waha

So back to work for me today. 7 days to go!! and back to school!! huraahh .. =)

tOodlEs 1/19/2007 03:11:00 AM

10 years have passed. Dad's exactly 10 years anniversary today. Can't imagine that dad have been gone dat long when it seems it was just recently. They say that time will heals all wounds but i guez in this case, it will take much much longer than a decade.

I still misses him lots. Sometimes i stll wonder how life would be like with him around. If i was given a wish, something that i can have for a day. Then that'll be dad. Just one last day to see his face, to hear his voice and juz having his presence ard. Growing up father-less has a been a challenge. Imagine seeing ur frens with their dad, fighting with him, being the daddy's girl and listening how they talk about their dad really strikes something inside. How you wish you could do the same - Have a dad to talk to, to fight with and just plainly talk bout him. All i can talk bout him is from my past memories of him.
I am getting on living without one but to get over him i dont think i could and it's not right. Even if i dont have a chance to see him again but how i hope my youngest bro does. I wonder how he cope being born without even seeing dad while all his other frens have dads. But i guez he'll be a strongest within amg all of us and hopefully the love by all of us is enuf for him to replace a dad's love. God bless my family.

On a seperate note. 2 days MC. waha. down with a flu. and my back doesnt help at all! wat gd does an op do other than you having to suffer from it. hmmm ..
But with this two days off doesnt mean im resting to the fullest k. I have my portfolio to do and i so so so stuck.

Back to portfolio-ing. SigH ... ToodlEs 1/17/2007 10:08:00 AM

Been a while since i last blogged. Rite now im writing my post in my finally retrieved newly wonderfully fast notebook!!! waha. now i can finish up my school work in peace without having to worry if it will shut down anytime soon.

Anyway, my main reason for not blogging is that i got no freaking idea what to blog!!! My life now is totally uninteresting & mundane - wake up @ 8am, werk, home, a bit of tv, sleep and the process repeats all over again.
But it's gonna end soon!!! next week will be my last week and oh how i am counting down to the very day. waha.
Juz to note .. i dont hate my work. It's alright. Bearable i guez but juz that im not over the fun-ness of campus life. Im not yet ready to be in the werking life. Since i kno that im only at the co. juz for a while and is not a permenant place for me, i didnt really go all in to connect and be close to anyone. But i do really have learned alot. Im gratefull for everything but theres sumthing missing. Still trying to pin point exactly what is it but it wont be necessary i guez since im living soon. Im so looking forward to enjoy my last month of poly life. haha

Feeling a bit unwell. Hmmm .. Oh well. Portfolio here i come!!

Toodlez!! 1/16/2007 01:48:00 PM

Mr Lee wasn't around for the classroom session. SobsOb. Meet all my frens and how i want SIP to end faster now. about 3 more weeks and i really hope that it will fly pass quickly.
i've yet to start on my portfolio but how could i wen weekdays i already feel so drained up by the end of the day and my weekend is also taken up. Oh god .. give me strength to survive the next 3 weeks. A miracle that i've been there for 4 whole month. 'a tap on the back'

And not to get excited or anything but on the last day of SIP, gonna be getting a bonus. 'smiles' im juz looking forward to viewing the wonderful flowers that will be on display since i missed the one that Singapore had.

Ohoh and this is something im getting excited about. Finally ... about time im getting a new laptop. Sadly as much as i dont wanna to, had to withdraw the money from there. Wanted to save it to futhur my studies but a computer is soooo vital!!! My current laptop love shutting itself down every few hours and the computer in the living room always jammed itself up even before i start using it. So far the sake of my portfolio and my final research paper and for the use in the future, i willingly have to resort to it.

Rite now im planning what im going to do for the next 5 years down the road. I use to have it all figured out but now i dont have the answers. SO in the meantime i shall take in everything dat is happening one day at a time untill i have the next plan in mind.

Anyhoos ... think i shall call it a day. There will be an event at TKC and im needed. Was planning to start on my portfolio but now have to save it for the next weekend. hmmmm ...

Toodles 1/06/2007 04:58:00 PM

Something that i though of doing while waiting fo rmy fren to finish her classroom session. And that julie ask me to do this ...so here goes ...

-your name plus "poo"
Asyurahpoo .. =P waha

-two feelings at the moment
hungry & contented

-wat are u listenin to rite now
this is the moment - Taufik Batisah

-A part of a song lyric that is in ur mind
It takes a lot to know what is love. Its not the big things the little things that can mean enough.

-the highlight of ur week
was still in city hall at 1am with peiling&fangan on 1st Jan 07
and the shopping spree i had with my two sis at metro sale @ expo the next day. waha!!

-wat are u craving to have rite now
food ................ im hungry!!!

-unforgettable childhood memory
wrapping all the toys we had with layers of newpapers to give to my brother for his bday coz we got no money to buy him anything. hahaha

-not so good memories
hmmmm ... it's something im still trying to move on from.

-what are ur nicknames
Asy, Syura, teddy, pinky, kakwa ....... =D

-your 3 planz for tomorrow
wake up, go to my co. event tml @ TKC and try to leave & go hme ASAP. (haiz .. werking on a my precious sunday!!)

-are u single
yupyup and loving it. =)

-what do u want
i want SIP to end ASAP and i want to cont'd my studies and i want to go to Vernice for a holiday and i want to find a job that i love and the list goes on. wahahahhaha

-say aniting u wan to whoever is reading ur blog
hihi!!! pls tagbefore leaving k. thankiez. =)

-are u feelin hungry
didnt i say im hungry??!

-who are u missin rite now
dad.

-last fren you talked to online
i think it was Nat or was Sophia or was it Dee .. haha

-what do you like about the nite
that another day has come to an end. And the feeling of peacefulness.

-what would u like to see
The Holiday!!! i've yet to watch it!!

-what would u wan to be till now
i want to be shorter!! waha ..
seriously i go no idea. sigh

-last gift
a handphone pouch from Ms Rozie wen she came back frm Padang

-do u like it
uh huh .. it looks absolutely cute

-do u play an instrument
use to play the piano.

-wat song did u last hear
Never Gone - BSB

-people u hate most
hate is a big word. there is none that i hate only ppl i cant get along. hee

-who makes you laugh the most
my family

-what makes you smile
cute teddy bears, cute babies & wen im reminicing on wonnderful past memories.

-who do u have a crush on
Jensen Ackles. wahaha

-name 6 ppl to do this
Azi, Idah, Zila, Dee, Huiying & Emma

Toodles 1/06/2007 04:38:00 AM

First and foremost:-

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