Time check: 4.20am

Bout a few minutes ago just finished watching Full House. waha. Im really addicted to all the K-dramas.

Anyhoos, remember my application to SIM ... well ... i rec'd the letter on Saturday and ... I GOT IN!! 'do happy dance'

I cant wait of the possibilities that im goin to go tru wen sch starts in June. But before that, reality sinks in and now im really worried. I dont kno how it's gonna be settled but since this path have been set for me, i hope the journey on will help .. oh god pls help.

And im so getting use to all these tourists character/behavoirs. Some could really just make you wanna shot them down while some just makes your day.
Nonetheless, i just love doin it. Mayb thats why im excited to contd my studies in my course and awaiting the opportunities to do what i love.

The weather nowadays have been really unpredictable. From very very extremely sunny to a very very bad thunderstorms which stops all of a sudden. Hopefully, cming sat & sunday, the weather will be on my side and may it will not be too sunny nor rains. I have activities planned with mum and sis.

And lately, or it's just recently, i have been doin some thinking. But i think i shall keep it to the back of my head. Coz i've promised my diary that i wont speak or even think of it anymore. I've lose hope on it already. hmmm ...

I just hope i do get into school so i can concentrate on being busy. Too much slacking can just kill you in more ways you cant imagine. waha

Toodles

~ My touts ~
It's only a matter of time
That it will occur
Im worried and excited
But at the same time im dreading it
Like life, its unpredictable
For now i hope it wont happen
I've things planned,
I've others to worry about
It wont help if it does
Just go away for now
I've close the door for its entry
Stay far away

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4/29/2007 10:20:00 PM

3rd shift at UWW today. covered for Nadia and it was my first time closing aloneeee .. it was okie i guez. Morning till afternoon crowd was already sooo slow. Come evening after ET left i was totally totally bored to death. After doing wat i suppose to - printing of adv tixs, setting aside float money, count cash etc etc, im left at looking at my own reflection. In the end, took silly pixs of myself frm my hp camera, sing out loud with the radio and welcome the unwanted visitors that consists of mainly flying ants. hahahaha ...

Back at THAT place .. well onli for a moment due to this thingy. donno if it's settled or not but WTH having me blamed. The amount of money i handle now is much much more that i ever held throughout my time there. And why should i do such a thing wen there was alot for me to lose.

Took the grad robe and im surprisingly surprise that it was actually nice. Hee .. The downside of it, there's no hat thingy to make it nicer. hehe ..

Now still clueless, stationary and i hate waiting. how long more??

And i love my bro's bike!! totally cool-ness lah.. will post a pic of it soon. It's just that i love having someone to sent me and pick me up which for today he did. haha .. but at the end of the trips, my butt aches. hahaha .. but it's saves my time taking the mrt and bus.
So im still on a mission to find a bf who hav a car so that he can chauffer me ard. wahahaha ..

This entry is totally random and all over the place. Read if u muz but if u dont understand, neither do some. hee .. go figure.

tOodlEs 4/26/2007 07:44:00 PM

THE day came and go. Awaited for the 22nd of april to come more than a month ago and finally the day had gone by. The best 2 1/2hrs of my life and oh how much i was smiling throughout the entire time.

Im refering to The Phantom Of The Opera my dear frens who was thinking otherwise. I was expecting it to be wonderful but it far exceeded my expectation coz it was extremely, superbly excellent. The scene change, the props, the characters and the oh so addictive songs. Me and sis was humming and singing to it all the way home. It was worth every single cent that i fork out. Im glad that of all productions, the choice i made to be my first in the esplanade is this. What more could i ask for. haha .. hmmm .. mayb either make the programme booklet cheaper or free. haha .. oh and the two ppl in front of us keep leaning forward thus blocking our view to certain parts of the stage. In order for me to see the happenings on the whole stage, i too hae to lean forward. how irritating. u can actually see fine even wen leaning back. jakun-ness ppl. xP

After researching on the whole Esplanade for one of my school assignment, i could finally actually watch a performance inside. For someone like me, i dont mind saving and spending more for a worth watching production. Arts is love for me and sis. Juz watching great theatre shows, musicals, dramas etc can make me the happiest girl at that moment - A note for future boyfren. haha (note, there's no 's' in boyfren coz im refering to the one. lol)

time check:- 6.10am

and im still wide awake. Juz less than 1/2 hr ago, i finally finished watching the korean drama series - My Girl. Recommended it to mum to watch it since now she's hook to korean dramas and she actually rented it!! waha. Ouh how i love mum so much! haha .. and the price of watching, not enuf sleep for nights. hahaha ..

And .. replies to tags:-

crapazoid: thxs dearie. ur a great fren that im glad to get to kno. i wish u gd luck to u too! jiayou to us!!

julie: i kno u'll be there always and back at you too. beep me anytime. HUGS .. and yupyup found it out frm my fren too. So ex mann juz for the robe. haiz. haha

Aisha: hee .. i hope so too. thankiez!! and good luck for your SIP. =)

okie .. eyelids totally heavy. have fun to those starting school in a few hrs time .. hehe .. tOodlEs

a peekon wat i saw:

4/22/2007 11:55:00 PM

Finally .. went to hand in my application to SIM. The school was impressive and hugigantic. haha

Wen we arrive, everyone was mugging and studying and filling up all the empty benches with books, notes and colourful stationeries. Somehow i can imagine myself studying at a similiar situation. And pardon me for saying this, but i miss mugging for exams! haha. Esp wen i did it tog with di. Im gonna miss our studying week sessions mannn.. haha

Met audrey for lunch at BK and headed out to Clementi bout 2 hrs later. The journey was super long and super ulu. haa .. After the summary talk held with regards to the course we decide to venture in, we found out only 13 places were left!!! ARgHhHh .. Hopefully our entry to the course wld be smooth sailing. Imagine 3 courses with only 30 students!! such competition. Really shows how many people are actually wanting to futhur their studies in HTM. 3 more agonising weeks to wait for the outcome. haizzz ..

Brainy .. we shd meet again!! Queue for donuts and go eat at Tong Seng. Haha. Im glad the course im doin is together with you. HUGS!!

On a seperate note:-


Looking back at it, i do feel lucky. Thanks to peepz whom have been there for me. Who have part of lifes shared with me and me with them. The fun times, crazy times, the laughters and even thing else in between, i thank you from the bottom of my heart for it all.

The primary school frens
The secondary school frens
The poly frens
The CCA frens
The deli frens
The UWW frens
The SIP frens
The camps frens

I would list people's name down, but im afraid i might miss out some who had impacted my life one way or another. Coz every person, every fren and every acquaintance ive met and known have change parts of the life im living now.

Thank You

Toodles 4/20/2007 06:07:00 PM

So does that mean i should give up studying?

In the back of my mind and my heart i do not want to. I wanna contd so by the time i step into the working world, i could gain more. Diploma nowadays is easily to find frm most people. I want to step up and be better - for once.

Aunt came by and starts asking qns. If i hav a job yet. If no why not since i've already hav my diploma. What sch im applying. How much is the fees. Do i get any scholarships or burseries. haizzz ..

Upon hearing the fees that i hav to pay she asked. "How are you going to pay since both u and ur sis wana contd study?"

I reali hope god has something planned for me to help me out. As said before, im at a crossroad unsure which path i should take. im tired of sitting down here, clueless and lost.

Someone, anyone who knows anybody who can fund my studies tell me .. haa

********************

And i should stop hoping to fit in. If ppl do forget me, be it. im okie with it. Heck, i should be use to it already.

toodles

4/19/2007 07:40:00 AM

And so, bored to death from staying at home and of my stoopid headache .. sooo .. to put my mind to concentrate on something else, i decided to bake. cookies this time. and less than 2 days, the 60+ cookies i baked were gobbled up by my siblings. i had plans for the cookies!! to only eat if im totally hungry in the wee hrs of the morning since i nw only sleep usually after 2am or later. ahahz


cookiezzzzzz .. =P

Then today, since mum was soo engrossed with the korean tv series (Be strong, Geum-Soon!) that she borrowed (7 cds mind you) and wanting to end it all by tmr, i decided to cook dinner instead. haa .. since there was the already defrosted chix waiting to be cooked, i decided to put my culinary skills to practice. hahaha .. and thinking it mite not be enuf, add another dish to the menu. Thus, the menu for dinner was:-

1) Baked chicken with carrots ... and ...
2) Potato and chicken chowder.

yumyum.

didnt reali followed the recipe .. juz did wat i remembered doin before ( did both of it in sch b4 during culinary class ) but with a lot of changes while following my tastebuds & instinct. hahahaha

but it turn out great!!


baked chicken


baked chix & potato chowder

On a similar note, elder sis wana bake a cake tmr. nthing special. juz to bake for fun. haa ..

toOdleS 4/17/2007 05:45:00 PM

It's funnie wen one day you feel too tired of living anymore and the next, ur anticipating where it'll take you next. Mayb bcoz realising it or not, we hav dreams and plans for what we want to achieve and at the back of our minds, we can visually see how it all work out in the end.

Slept the whole day yesterday due to the unbearable headache and the loss of my voice. By sleeping, i can prevent frm eating anymore panadols that doesnt help and also frm talking to anyone thus preserving my voice. Due to the hours and hours of sleep, i couldnt sleep the whole of last nite. Stayed up to watch movies ... long time ago movies that i still love. To name a few, she's all that and the perfect man. Ironically, love story type of movies thingy. haa .. juz wanna smile for no reason. haha.

It had been a while since i last saw the sunrise. And as i look out to the morning skylight, it caught me short and i stopped breathing for a few seconds. The view was truly magnificient and it hit me there and then - how wonderful god creation is. As the sun starts to rise, the colours it bring out gives hope showing a new day is arriving and to start everything fresh. note to self: i need to go live near to nature more even if it's for only a month.

Rite now i hate not doing anything. My plans are now stationary and unmovable untill some things gets settled and confirmed. Im juz looking forward to sunday this week - Phantom of the opera @ the esplanade. Time pls fly.

And something random, i found a way to destress .. baking .. im falling in love with baking. muffins and cookiez done. next to try, choc cakes and brownies .. hee

tOodlEs

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My throat hurts and im having stomach uneasiness and i wish i could juz dissapear. I think im somehow am suffering frm a slight depression. I have no idea when and how or why but mayb i lost the feeling of looking forward to something when i wake up everyday.

But im alright. Truly. Mayb rite now. from where im standing, the sun has yet to come out. It's just the days where it rains non-stop and wen it doesnt, it's just drizzling or cloudy or just that the earth stop spinning leaving me stuck in the night time.

On a more cheefully separate note, watched Because I Said So with sis yesterday. An interesting storyline and in some parts, i choked up frm tears. I didnt cry but was just touched. Unlike wen i watched A Walk To Remember, tears actually keep rolling down my cheeks. haha. Then, a bit of retail therapy for sis and pizza hut again for dinner.

And currently to fill up my boredom, been stuck with a book by Nora Roberts and oh how i wish i could live in the coutryside. Away from tall buidings everytime i look out the wondow or hearing noises from vehicles passing by.
I just want to see the endless horizon stretched out. To breath in the cool morning air and late nights atmosphere while swinging on the porch enjoying freshly baked cookies and a glass of milk while wrapping myself in a nice toasty warm blanket with a book by my side. And to enjoy the early morning sunrise and the late evening sunset. To fill my time with endless baking in the kitchen or drawing non-sensical pictures that only i could interpret or get engross in books that test my mind or just bring me away from reality and get lost in the world im reading about.
Or mayb i can imagine my life near the beach, doin exactly what i've said above but as a plus, i could have morning or night walks by the beach and have the crashing waves sounds as a bedtime lullaby.
Or mayb a cottage in the woods, where i can actually have an advanture of my own, trekking and discovering.
I know that all that i just stated wont exactly come true but mayb i just add in to my wishlist coz as they say .. somehow wishes do come true if you really believe. hahaha

back to fill my time with nothingness. im too bored that i become to lazy when my room is shouting for me to clean it up and my laudry basket for me to clear. haizzzz .. i really need to dissapear. haa ..

ToodlEs 4/11/2007 05:32:00 PM

the past few weeks had been filled with never ending outings and fun-ness. SO here are the pics to enjoy .. coz im abit lazy to describe em' all in vivid details. haha. so enjoy!!

PENTAS

i kno this is way way overdue but still .. a moment that to be remembered. hee


MAG-ians!


seniorsz


Nadi-ian 07


Oldie & Newbie Nadi


us and props!!

NADI OUTING CUM CELEBRATION

After a stressful week of pentas, it was time to celebrate!! To celebrate the successful staging of Pentas Janji and the rise of new Nadi sub comm members. It was the best outing!! A great day spent with wonderful peepz!!


cycling


pit stop to take pic .. haha


Ms J.D and me


mua and crazyly unique ain .. haa


nad w and me


buffet spread ..


first twister grp


second twister grp


complicated third twister group


playin the thinking game


girls out loud


taiti den .. haa


heart attack!!!


BOWLINGGG


girls bowling

DELI FRENS OUTING

Love this three girls to bits!! They made my werk life in deli the last time fun & memorable. glad tt even we are busy with our own stuff, we still have time to spare to meet. HUGGIEZ!


sophie, me and liana


our yummy food


i-scream .. yummy

AFTER PPP RESTAGED OUTING

If some of u didnt kno. TP's PPP last yr was to be restaged agn for the launch of this yr PPP. Held at Arts House and i tink it'll be fun all over agn. Except i cant be involve anymore. sadness .. anyhoos, went for the restaged and after that hung out with them Nadians agn for pizzas and cam-whoring. haa


at the arts house


waiting for entry


girl power


our table


the other table


our bill .. waha


fantastic five .. haha


face up


everyonee who cam-whored


girls




look up




though blurred but i love it!

VIDEO WATCHING MARATHON

thxs fie for lending us ur hse and ur hospitality. it was damn tiring staring at the tv for hours but it was funnn!! we shd do it agn. soon! 'winks winks'


all who came


concentratinggg .. haa


all who were left at the end of the day



PHEW .. finally all donee ..

ToOdlEs 4/08/2007 06:25:00 PM

Im extremely in an emo-ed mood since yesterday night. The time of the month i guez but i never ever have a moment of PMS-ing before this year and i tink this month is the worst. Mayb age is catching up. Hate this feeling of over sensitivity. Or mayb there's too much on my mind rite now. Too many in fact that i dont even kno where to begin. I just hope that as this so called wonderful journey of life continues, everything will get better.

Im forsee-ing myself stuck at a crossroad. Not a two way crossroad but i tink a four of five way that i desperately need to pick one. But im clueless on which path is the best coz once i venture into one, it'll be the point of no return. And so ... i just prefer to sit and stare into nothingness which i think thats wat im doing at this current moment. So excuse my fake smile or laughter for now. Im trying to find me back.

On a totally seperate seperate note, can i have dimitri (in anastasia) as my guy. ](ps to julie - i will still fight for jensen though) hahaha. Mayb for now my perfect guy is in fairy tales and tv series. Im not prepared for reality yet.

And i tink im gonna try tutoring. Any one who needs any tutors for those frm K1-Pri 6 lemmi kno. 'grins' ..

I'll end todays post with a song that's stuck in my head. tOodlEs

Anatasia sountrack - Journey to the past

Heart, don't fail me now!
Courage, don't desert me!
Don't turn back now that we're here.
People always say Life is full of choices.
No one ever mentions fear!
Or how the world can seem so vast
On a journey ... to the past.

Somewhere down this road I know someone's waiting
Years of dreams just can't be wrong!
Arms will open wide.
I'll be safe and wanted
Fin'lly home where I belong.
Well, starting now, I'm learning fast
On this journey to the past

Home, Love, Family.
There was once a time I must have had them, too.
Home, Love, Family, I will never be complete Until I find you...

One step at a time,
One hope, then another,
Who knows where this road may go
Back to who I was,
On to find my future.
Things my heart still needs to know.
Yes, Let this be your sign,
Let this road be mine!
Let it lead me to my past
And bring me home...
At last! 4/05/2007 07:56:00 PM


Mayb it's just me but i sometimes feel im bad at being a fren. I try to be a good one. Mayb a least a fren but it seems as the years goes pass i dont qualify to be one. You know when we were younger, when we label our frens as just frens, good frens, close frens and best frens, so which part of that category do i fit into.

Somehow i came up with this conclusion. Mayb the reason why i do not get too close with anyone that much is mayb bcoz there's this rules that frens tell frens everything. And im not prepared to tell people bout my life secrets and i myself sometimes do not wish to know others as it means it adds to more of my problems which in the first place is hard for me to carry. Selfish huh. I know. Haiz.

But that doesnt mean i dont care. You can share part of ur life story to me and i will definately do the same but to an extend i suppose. Trust is the word that i feel is hard to come by.

And hav u in a particular moment, even when u are surrounded with great people it's hard for you to smile. You seriously do not hav a problem but you just cant smile. Even if you do, you kno it's so plastic. Funnily, at that particular moment you just feel that you wish to go somewhere - quiet, peaceful and with a company that you feel extremely comfortable with even without any words spoken.

But sometimes to be forgotten completely it hurts and mayb bcoz if that i learn never to expect too much from someone too much.
I do wonder then, since frenship hurt-ness sometimes juz kills how bout love hurt-ness. wouldnt you feel like dying? And so now you kno why wen u ask me if i ever be in love, my simple answer will be no and i dont plan to for a long time i guez. haa .. Weird isnt it that i've given up on love wen i never even experience it. Well .. love comes in lots of different form. Mayb the ones i've received so far is just sufficent enuf.

Im so unsure of what im looking for and seek to find. Time is ticking and im slowly reaching THE age of 'freedom'. Freedom to what i havent got the slight idea. What im worried about now is to survive. Im so afraid of the future. Should i just giv up what i wana persue now for the sake of my siblings? right now im totally not helping. haiz

tOodlEs 4/04/2007 08:14:00 PM

WARNING!! super long entry below.

First outing:- Audrey belated bday celebration

ppl involved: me, audrey, su & nad

The four of us decided to go Seoul Garden. Meeting was at 1pm but me & su reached at 2pm!!! wahaaa .. not only we missed the stop but had something to do b4 meeting the rest. haa.

Anyhoos, i think i ate tremendously a lot!! me and su keep gorging ourself non-stop till there no way we could eat anything else except ... ice -cream!! haha. a great way to end a delicious meal.

den headed to shop & save or was it cold storage to buy the ingredients i lack for baking my muffins tonite. Yesh! im baking for two days in a row! ahahz. It was my first time ever baking muffins and i hope it'll turn out great.

Then one by one had to leave and left with only me & su where we rested our heavy stomach in the library.haha. left bout 6pm to go meet my mum at Bishan for maulidur rasul.

thanks girls for the delicious outing. It was love to see all of u. hee .. 'HUGS'

4/01/2007 09:03:00 AM