My horoscope is hinting something to me .. and i somehow feels it's a good advice that i should adhere to. 'grins'

my horoscope:-

It's admirable that you want to get a lot done today, but are you sure that you're not putting way too much pressure on yourself? Unreasonable deadlines and heightened expectations are a tough combination for anyone to grapple with -- even a superstar like you! The people around you are moving at their own (somewhat slower) pace, and they're doing just fine -- you need to follow their example. Pushing yourself and pushing other people to keep up is a lose-lose proposition.

Mayb im expecting too much of myself and the ppl around me. I do not want to make the same mistakes during my time in poly when i usually leave things at the last minute. I want to score better and i aim to do so. 'cross fingers' .. but mayb not to the expense of getting myself and those around me dead before we reach the finishing line. waha

tOodlEs

7/31/2007 08:18:00 PM

Mayb i should re-organise my life. As much i hate denying it, i think im sort of drifting away from what i believe in and my faith that i've held on so tightly for so long. i've procastinated far too long and my responsibilities just keep on piling.

On what rad have posted in her latest entry, i truly understands where is she coming from. Having siblings that is more than a handful can sometimes just makes you wish and ponder on the what ifs you didnt have as much siblings. But right now to lose one of them is one of the scariest thing that i would even want to face. As much as you try to understand you mum, you've already felt so tired trying to live your life. But as they say blood is thicker than water so wouldnt that counts for comething. I know im beating round the bush but for does who understands im glad. Those who dont, feel free to ask. haa~
To rad: rem that they are frens who love u for who u are. take care always and i ll always be hear for a listening ear. HUGS

And an event is comig up .. Pentas Budaya 2007. and im involved. WoOhOo .. part of me is rejoicing for the opportunity while the other part, im worried about missing class. haiz. but a once in a life time chance of doing a production in victoria theatre, i couldnt say no. and mayb this might be my last ever production.

Time check: 1.15am

Morning class tmr followed by project discussionssss .. long long day. time for bed i guez.

tOodlEs

p/s sweet tooth inc has moved to http://sweettoothinc.multiply.com ... go visit ya! 7/30/2007 02:16:00 PM

7/28/2007 05:51:00 PM

As predicted, TP won PPP. woOhoO .. they bagged most of the awards and though im not in any part of it, im sooo happy for em'. So like last yr wen we won. Mayb next year we'll take it home again. who knows. 3rd time a charm. haa~

anyhoos, was goin tru with brainy and julz on our deadlines for projects and assignment, we found out we have just about a month to complete 4 of em'!! more sleepless nights for me, less social time and bigger panda eyes to look forward to. and the projects are soo difficult plus all our other school work, i'll be soo exhausted. It's not like there's 10 days in a week. siGh ..

i will get through this. i hope.

time check: 12.01am

im yawning non stop but here i am still researching when my bed is calling me. and today was my first time staying back in school till 8pm. we were 'arguing' so much on our intepretation of the project brief for IHRM. haha .. but it was fun.

I think reali time for bed. need to wake up in a h=few hours time. Good Night world.

tOodlEs

p/s tmr might be watching harry potter with mum and youngest bro. hurrah! 7/23/2007 05:56:00 PM

End of the third week of school. Miraculously i've survived. Group formation should be confirmed i think. And most of the projects are dued either end of next month or early september. To think we only have bout a month to complete so much aside from the revisions we have to do on our own.

And im werking tmr! im so dreading it espacially me being posted to dolphine lagoon!! it's my first time there mind you. ArgH .. if i dont die of boredom i will die from it. haha. I would prefer to spent my day buried in school work. yes im becoming a nerd. haizzz ..

And went to the Arts House Playden yesterday for PPP. Went to support the Tp-MAGians and their play did impressed me. For the last part of it, i was holding back my tears. I could really feel what the character was going through - the anger, the disgustment, the sadness. I hope we'll win. But as they say, u'll win some you'll lose some but i hope they'll win all. haha.

Pray that tmr will fly pass .. for my sake.

tOodlEs

7/21/2007 05:16:00 PM

Seem now i have a purpose in the direction to where im heading in life. and so i thought. i hate moments when you have the time to let your mind wonder and you ended up lost and unsure once again.

was watching 'in her shoes' on cable yesterday and was surprised it touched me once again. espacially love the poem that was read near to the end of the movie.


and sadly, im not my favourite person right now. why? thats reali a question worth a million dollars coz i myself do not know why. Mayb i sort of do but im still in denial. oh how i wish i could read the story of my life so i can be prepared to face all that im suppose to with much grace.

'mA toUts'

The time comes
When finally you realize
All that happened
Was once upon a time ago
You nudge yourself back to the reality of life
And like a memory
You try to forget
Coz it’s sometimes best to not remember
And hopefully
It soon fades
So you can move on to build new bridges 7/19/2007 08:47:00 AM

It was time for the group project formation again. And im always not looking forward to having to choose. Of coz everyone wants the best peepz in their group. No one wants a free-loader or one whom just is not an asset to the team. Like me and audrey, we have been group mates before for a year thus we know each others working style and for that, im soo glad she's in mine again.

But the problem now is the frickle-mindedness of the teachers on whether they would prefer a 3 or 4 or 5 or 6 man project group. Cant they just decide and make up their mind and standardise everything instead of having to always consult the IMI. It will be definately easier for us of having the same ppl for all group projects. Oh well .. at least now it's sorta confirm for only the EDP subject and im happy with the peepz that are in mine.

Starting tmr i predict everything will zoom past fast with all the projects coming in and drafts that are to be submitted soon. I think by the end of this semester, i'd be totally drained out. 'preparing myself mentally and physically'

Now the thing that is staring straight in my face are all the school stuff that are demanding my utmost attention. haizzz .. i'll face them soon. i promise.

toOdleS 7/17/2007 04:00:00 PM

Seems like i've been blogging lesser and lesser. Not that i have nothing to type about. I do .. my mind is overfilled with endless touts that i ponder about but as soon as i logged into my blogger account, my hands would freeze up and my mind will come to a blank.
Ironically when it come to my personal diary, i could pen down my touts as fast as a bursting water pipes. If i dont try stopping myself from writing too much when i started, i could actually end up writing a novel. Mayb becoz in writing in a public blog, eventhough you do write a disclaimer that says whatever is written is your touts and that no one can sue you for that, there are still some issues which you feel it's best if no one knows about. But if it's your personal diary, you can write as much as you want to without anyone knowing your deepest secrets and feelings and judging you by it. I was telling myself that if i could easily tell someone particularly a him whatever i write down in my personal diary, i would marry him. waha. which i dont think would ever happen.

So whats been happening lately ..
... me falling sick. had a tempreture of 38.5 and i literally nearly died.
In some ways i love falling sick but also i hate falling sick. contradicting huh. the loving it part is that i can sleep the day away without feeling guilty and the hate part is im afraid i might not wake up if i close my eyes to sleep. Call me crazy but i hav my reasons for feeling that way. For me to know and you to either or not find out.

Due to me falling sick, i havent been touching my school stuff and im feeling guilty-er by the minute im writing down this post. School starting in the afternoon tmr but mayb i go out early tmr and head out to the national library to catch up abit on my werk.

Till my next entry.

ToOdLes 7/15/2007 05:35:00 PM

By the time i reach home from sch today, it was only 3.30pm. Early early .. Just came to school for a 3hr (which was then drag to nearly 4hr) of tutorial and soon after i got nthing else planned. So .. home i went and straight to watching bones.

Ouhh how i love the series sooo much. There's so much truth in the story that really can jolt a person back to reality and how it never failed to touched and tear-ed me. I just love how she (Temperance B.) and her team of 'squits' (which i too love) help give back the identity of all the unidentified victims which usually are already burned or rotted or decomposed to the bones and then they find out how the victims were murdered. Together with booth, they catches the bad guy and uphold justice. wahahahahha .. so superhero sound-like. haha. Though booth may not be the cute handsome kinda hero you expect to see. but there's just this charm about him that you wish or hope that your boyfren will be like. 'grins' haha

Back to sch thingys .. haiz ..
And tmr will only be 2hrs of school BUT the jorney to and fro will be more!! the journey just drains me ... but somehow im starting to love sch. haha.

before i start crapping, i better stop. haha ..
tOodLes 7/10/2007 10:38:00 AM

Wanted to take a break from doing school stuff .. try it! some do make sense while others just makes you laugh your heart out. lol.

1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc)
2. Put it on shuffle
3. Press Play
4. For every question, type the song that's playing
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button
6. Don't lie

Opening Credits: Smooth - Santana

Waking Up: By your side - Sade

First Day of School: Crazy - Simple Plan

Falling in Love: This ain't a scene, its an arms race - Fallout Boys (waha .. hmm .. sorta true u think?)

Getting it on: So she dances - Josh Groban

Fight Song: My happy ending - Avril Lavigne (i won? haha)

Breaking Up: Here with me - Dido (interesting .. lol)

Prom: Shiver - Natalie Imbruglia

Life: Dont tell me - Avril Lavigne (i guez life secrets should be kept a secret .. haha)

Mental Breakdown: This is my now - Jordin Sparks (so should i have a mental breakdown now? .. haa)

Driving: Open up your mind - Mirai (OMG!! the song is in jap&english but quite cool and i can imagine singing it when driving. lol)

Flashback: How does it feel - Avril Lavigne (wahh ... it relates! haha)

Wedding: Sudah tu sudah - Imran Ajmain (ermmmmm ... sounds like im being forced to get married!!! haha)

Birth of child: What's going on - All Stars (hahahhahahhaha)

Final Battle: Woman like me - Beyonce

Death Scene: i dont wanna miss a thing - Aerosmith (crazy mann .. unless .. if to happens to someone close to me i wouldnt want that person to die alone)

Funeral Song: All i have to give - Backstreet Boys (wat?!)

okie .. back to work. toOdlEs 7/07/2007 08:17:00 PM

If you think poly life is hard, wait till you decide to take up a degree. You will question yourself what the hell you've put yourself into. Trust me. i did. haa~

However, it only lasted a few seconds before im back on track. My aims keep me sane, my goals keep me grounded and my promise make me stive on. But im surprise at the things im doing now that i never done before. I actually reading my notes before the start of the class, i really read tru the textbook over and over to understand what the topic is about and I read through and revise the notes again at home after class.

And to think my english was good but oh how wrong i am. the journal articles that was given for us for additional reading are very very very chim and im not exaggerating. Had to constantly refer to the dictionary to understand what am i reading. haizz ..

this journey ahead seems so rocky for now but that 1st honour degree is just within my reach. i just need to persist on in order to get a hold of it.



LiveEarth. a concert across 7 continents to bring awareness that our earth is in great danger. As much as some people are in doubt that this actually do work, but if you try keeping an open mind, it's the first step to emphasize that the earth cant possibly recover on its own espacially with the amount of pollutants that everyone have been contributing thus far. The floods, the heat wave, the earthquakes, the melting glacial, the dry up river and the other natural disasters that is constantly happening have been trying to make a statement even before LiveEarth started out. But im glad ppl are starting to do something.



And on a seperate down-side note, a few days ago, Nad's mum passed away. She was a very sweet lady whom i glad i got to know. God loves her her more than we do. And i pray her soul be blessed and place among 'orang-orang yang beriman' .. amin

To lose a parent is hard and you will never forget that episode in your life. It will constantly be repeated in your mind and the pain can get unbearable sometimes.

To nad, hold on tight to the memories of her and be strong. Believe that now she is at a better place and will constantly be watching over you.



Oh oh and for those who yet to catch Transformers, you should!! right now! i kno it's gonna be awesome but never did i expect it to be totally spectacular. Im so buying the dvd once it comes out!! and watching it really brings back memories espacially seeing Optimus Prime. We had the action figure once. i wonder where it went. haha.

toOdlEs all ..

'ma tout'

the heartache you'll feel
will be impossible to be set aside
as much as how busy life is
in one point of time
your mind goes wondering back
to that incident once again
the day you lost that special someone

as you live on the memories
you try so hard not to forget
you vow that it will never fade away
and to keep it alive and going forever
it's to remind you
that those time spent together
was the best time of your life
and thats the reason why
it's still embeded
in your heart and mind 7/07/2007 04:01:00 PM

Back to school!! after months of uncertainty. weee~





7/03/2007 04:40:00 PM

it's over. yeahyeah. the primary sch gathering has finally ended. In short, it was an interesting-ly fun day. haa~

Started out early morning to meet Mas, Fai and Nokz at 10am but then postponed to 11am for our bbq shopping spree at TM's NTUC. After the amazing-like-shopping, we then proceeded to Mas uncle shop to collect our orders of marinated chix wings and steaks. Waiting for taxis to go to Pasir Ris park was really irritating even when we tried calling for a cab.

Upon reaching there, we did the necessary stuff and soon i had to go off. bro picked me up and sent me back. Wen i came back, NorMd, Im and Shida was there. All of them were different. very very diff. I had to really try to remember who they were .. haha.

Other faces that showed up were Sabky, Fadzley, Denise, Gerald, Marrisa, her guy Irwan and Ismon. Yup just this few bunch of peepz. Though small, but the company and the food were great. 'grins'

Still i prefer our the past bbq we had bout 5 years ago ..

p/s: pics up soon

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And today, i nearly died. literally. wanted to fast today with sis to repay back but suddenly in the afternoon i had the worst stomachache ever. den suddenly, found out i had to stop fasting and at the same time, my cramps come into action. wahhhh .. double impact sehh. even after gluping down the panadol active fast, i was totally in pain. tried to stray my touts away from the pain but the pain was overwhelming. So i force myself to sleep so i will not feel it at all. When i finally did around 2pm, i kept on waking up and sleeping again due to the fighting between the pain and the panadol and finally i woke up at 9pm. yesh that late. still my stomach hurts.
thank god theres no school today. coz even as im typing now, my stomach is killing meeeee .. sobsob.

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and tmr sch's starting. it's finally coming to a beginning. Im excited and anticipating on the journey ahead but at the same time dreading the work thats awaiting. the long tutorials and lectures, the projects, the choosing of grp members and grp meetings ... all over again and the journey there!

Nonetheless, i've reset my goals and shall in every way try to achieve it. i need to make mum proud.

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and on another seperate note, does me wearing the tudong straight away classifies me and a goody two shoes? it's so weird having ppl being surprised that i do have with me poker cards and knows how to play taiti. it's fun and games and since it doesnt have anything that goes again my faith then im okie with it. my next want to learn list .. can anyone teach me how to play mahjong? hehehe

okie. time to hit the sack. must be at clementi mrt by 8.30am tmr .. wahhhhh ...

tOodleS

7/02/2007 05:57:00 PM