Wanted a change but sticking to the same theme. Sunflowers juz makes me happy. roses are nice, lilies are sweet but sunflower apart that it is yellow, it blooms of hope.

Met the secondary sch peepz yesterday for my long awaited Nasi Pattaya at Spize. As usual, there was onli me, nat and muni which was enuf to bring the house down. haha. We went all the way to the one at Rivervalley as im not keen going to the one at Sempang Bedok. As usual the food didnt disappoint me but alas the serving was too big that i cldnt finish it.

been trying to live one day at a time. but everytime i tried, i get worried. i cant live not knowing what will i be doing tmr or the following week and where i will be heading to the next few months. i know that things will not always go as planned but the tout of nothing is written down in my daily planner juz kills me. i should reali learn the art of doing nothing. dont get me wrong .. i love doing nothing. just slack the day away. rainy days are the best time to do so esp wen i've been having busy weeks and days before. one week is adequately sufficient for me. too much of slacking tires me. too much of slacking will make me feel unaccomplished.

truthfully, im not sure if i will see the next 20 years of my life. knowing that it can happen anytime just scares me as i might not accomplish things i wana do in life. i wondered how dad coped with it. the pain, the breathlessness, the feeling of slight inferiority. he was stronger than me - much much stronger. he was and always be my hero.

Anyway, after saying this out loud that i start believing. A company that judge me on what i wear than on my accomplishments, abilities and talent is not a company worth working for. And holding strong to my belief, values and faith, i know that the path that i will land will be worth waiting and fighting for.

half a month more to go before a new chapter unfolds.

tOodlEs


muni, nat & me 12/14/2007 04:20:00 PM