Im having a terrible terrible mood swing today. As i stare at myself in the mirror, there was so much rage in my eyes. Hated myself for scolding my youngest sis and snapping at my youngest bro esp wen he's helping me to bake. haix .. i tried to control this mixed emotions but it comes out as me being absolutely cold and distant. can't be that it is due to my period as i last had it a week ago and i dont expect it to come for about 2 weeks time. aRgHhh!! i just cant explain where does all this anger comes from. mayb it might be due to the fact that in less than a month time i will not be seeing them for a year. i should be feeling sad and try to spent more time with them instead of picking up a fight. mayb im afraid i might miss fighting with my siblings. haha .. call me crazy if you must. haiz. as much as sometimes they annoy the hell outta me, i will really truly miss my family alot. dont tell me im feeling home sick when im not even there yet. lolz

Right now im putting my packing on haitus untill after hari raya haji. yes im procastinating but packing = leaving soon which i am not ready to face yet. funnie when i was in poly, i was planning to study overseas for a degree education and when now i have the chance, im afraid to do so.

For the rest of this month, my plans will be:-
6/12: beach road sup tulang with sis
8/12: K-Ok with nokz and mas
10/12: to winnings to get my long john and ayam penyet with sisters
11/12: vivo-ing for jeans and white shirts
13/12: Spize-ing at rivervalley with sec sch peepz
15/12: dinner date with pri sch frens
18/12: sent sis to airport (she's goin germany & london)
19/12: baking day with mum
20/12: HARI RAYA HAJI!
21/12: meeting peiling and huiying (movie & dinner)
22/12: meeting brainy, su and nadia (movie & lau pa sat)
23/12: meeting fate and fang an (bowling & dinner)
25/12: CHRISTMAS!
27/12 or 28/12: dinner date with Ms J.D
31/12: pick up sis from the airport

anymore bookings do look at the dates that are not mentioned. haha ..

time check: 3.40am

i still need to wait till 530am. im paying back my fasting. 7 more days in the month of ramadan that i skipped and additional 2 more days that i promise i will fast if i get at least a B for my exams. so 1 down and 9 more days to go.

practically, i've watched all the current episods of alot of tv series that i missed and right now im falling in love with Moonlight. =)

tv here i come to help me kill time. *yawns

tOodlEs 12/05/2007 08:15:00 PM