Results were released at 5pm today while i was busy shopping at the John Little Mega Expo Sale (actually wanted to go for just the Sitex show but since the sale was next door, it was extremely tempting. haha). Once i got home, put down my stuff and head towards the computer to check it out out. As soon as i glanced tru, i started jumping for joy and mum joined in. Though it mayb not be the best of the best results but im glad i could achieve wat i did and hoping mum was proud of me. If ur asking how much i got, i scored 3 As and 3 Bs!! wOohOo .. i never got so much As before! Alhamdulillah i did well *feeling over the moon
Hopefully i can do better wen im in Swiss.

And from my 8 i want/have to do list, im going LauPaSat with the poly frens, Spize with the secondary sch peepz and Beach Road with dearest elder sis. Mayb ayam penyet with younger sis. hee~

Meeting mas and nokz today for vivo shopping was total fun-ness. With alot of crazy moments and laughter till you cry scenes. haha. seeing them again next week for K-Ok .. haha. wee~ it's so weird wen the past 10years we never hang out or even contact each other. wen suddenly one day after the at the spur of the moment meet, (coz i was so bored at that time and suddenly tout of meeting the pri sch peepz) we now at least meet up once a month. And its never awkward but always filled with lots of crazy fun moments. *grins

i juz love the frens meet-ups. more to come this month!! cant wait!

reality check: one more month left in spore! *gasps! 11/30/2007 06:44:00 PM

I didnt realise i've kept so many of my old stuff. found 2 of my very old diary which i started writing when i was in sec one. mostly my teenage angst and my so called happiest days of my life. haha. as i read on, episodes of my past life came flashing back. all in all, everything was bittersweet which im glad i've passed tru.

This past few days, been sleeping late and wake up much later. the only cleaning so far ive done was rearranging only 1/2 of my cupboard. i still have lots do clear off but i dont find the motivation to do so right now. mayb im afraid that if i actually finish off clearing and packing, reality will soon sink in that im flying off soon for a year. im not prepared to face that reality yet.

i still hav lots of my do list before end of dec. i want to:-
1) go Lau Pa Sat and eat yummy satay and stingray and bbq chix
2) go lucky plaza eat ayam penyet
3) go watch songs of the sea
4) hang out one last time at the Esplanade
5) chill out at the starbucks at One Fullerton
6) go beach road for sup tulang
7) go Spize for the nasi pattaya
8) go Ben & Jerry at Raffles City Shopping Center

though there's more, but this will be my top 8 things to do (not in order). anyone wana go with me? pls pls pls beep me. seems most of my to do list consist of food. haha. im so gona miss spore food alotalot there.
so many things to do, so little time.

cant wait for coming of dec. gona be meeting my pri sch babes 3 times in that month! meeting Ms J.D, meeting weirdy, lil mermaid and cha2, meeting the poly frens and meeting sophs & yana.
anyone wana go countdown with me this yr?? hee~

as much as there is alot on my mind, i dont know wat to write. with all this free time leaves me too much time to think bout everything. and then comes the worrying about nothing.
i juz want to fall into a deep dreamless long sleep so i do not need to think and worry too much and drawing up pictures of the different scenarios that life will take me. mayb i should go back to reading once again to get lost in a world of fantasy.

tOodlEs 11/27/2007 05:03:00 PM

While cleaning up my stuff to put in boxes, found this:-


the 3 pentas-es that i was involved in.

lights designer to floor manager to asst. stage manager.
those were the days mann .. reali miss those time.
just looking at the brochures brings about alot of wonderful memories.
3 years in poly do fly fast.


an add to my collection. =)

Anyhoos, yest (fri) went back TP to meet up with them Nadi-ans. It was their formal meeting for a post pentas feedback session. and yes i gave them my comments and touts of the last pentas. Juz want u guys to take note of the things i've highlighted and improve for the future productions. doing that was a closure for me to know that Nadi will be in good hands as i fly away from Spore soon.

And as usual, when all Nadi peepz meet, everyone will go crazy (in a good way). Yes i reali reali miss those time. but life have to move on and change is never constant. so as i look back to the great time i had once upon a time, i will look forward to new experiences to enjoy.


im booked on the 8th and 15th dec with them pri sch frens!! wee~ anymore bookings? hahaha

tOodlEs 11/24/2007 05:05:00 PM



11/23/2007 08:37:00 AM

finally my plans starts kicking in yesterday. went IKEA-ing with my youngest sis and bro coz i need to get boxes to keep all my stuff in for a year. waha. didnt realise i took so much stuff until i had to pay them. waha. see wat i bought:-


we got 3 of those IKEA paper bags full of stuffs!!

see the amt of boxes i end up buying. lolz


den i finally bought my boots!! wee~
actually it was out of stock for quite some time. for my size that is. it's so hard to get sizes above 42!! so many small feet ppl in spore! aRGhh .. waha. anyway, it was when i was out with julz and azm. Since we're passing into raffles city shopping ctr, i tout of trying my luck to see if the new stock came. and it juz arrived!!! after much debate and persuasion frm the two, i finally bought it!! yay!! i got my high cut boots to wear there. exciting!!


my lovely boots! waha

cant wait for tmr. more retail therapy to come with brainy. this time for winter clothes!! but seeing my ka-ching fly away every time i go out breaks my heart .. well, it's not everyday that i shop. i barely shop unless necessary. and the stuff im buying now is my necessity. hahaha .. okie i've done convincing myself so im feeling less guilty now. haha.

okie i've gone crazy. muz be too much tv. haa~

tOodlEs 11/21/2007 03:10:00 PM

i cant believe that i've been waking up near to noon, watched tv practically the whole day without felling any guilt! waha. now, im bored to death. but i've yet to clean up all my stuff and pack all the impt things i need to bring. however right now, i got no mood to do anything. cant wait for retail therapy soon. waha ..

wen i re-read my previous post, i feel i was expecting too much and too strict on my dearest production peepz. without much help from any seniors, due to SIP and alumnis, due to werk, exams & NS, they reali have done their best which im proud of. Their commitment and bond amongst each other do put a huge smile on my face as i kno that in the coming future, nadi-ians will be much much better off. i salute their bravery and willingness to learn and try. HUGS. Amidst some mistakes that was bound to happen in any productions, you guys still made it tru and im proud of every single one of u guys.

Okie back to rotting my final weeks away. haha

tOddLes 11/18/2007 02:52:00 PM

The last exams paper ended thursday and i think after the 2hrs of writing non stop, my hands finally went on strike. literally that is. haha .. hopefully, all the endless studying will pay off. anyway, im left with only about 6 weeks here. part of me cant wait to leave and another doesnt want to. but no matter what, i am. i pray i can be strong physically and mentally. growing up IS scary. a journey i didnt expect to encounter this soon. haha

in my have to meet people list:-

the poly mates: su, nad, hy, peiling, fang an, fate and di
the pri sch peepz: mas, nokz, emma, mesa, shida
the others: elisa, sophie & liyana

The nadi gang was suppose to be in. but since i've seen them during pentas, i guez it's covered. haha.. i dont mind another meet though. *grins

speaking of which, before we went to the show itself, met azm first before heading to raffles city shopping center to meet juliee. and somehow, we ended up in Sentosa. waha. it was one hell of a crazy complicated ride. lolz. ended up being 2hrs late. sori sori sori julieee for making u wait .. spore is so small yet so big. but it was love meeting them both as usual. haa~

Overall, my touts of the production was erm .. a tad dissapointing. some items were impressive. but mostly my dissapointment was focused more to my production team. as i sat at the audience and seeing the obvious technical hiccups that could not be covered, i wished that it was only a rehearsals instead. Wont elaborate much. wana kno more of my comments, beep me. i juz hope that what we've fight for so long to achieve wont get flushed down the drain.

Anyhoos, my plans for the next few days, claim back all my sleepless and late nights from the past 6 months.

Till next entry. tOodlEs 11/16/2007 07:06:00 PM

~mA tHoutS~

My guilty conscience bugs me day and night
i somehow feel it was all because of me
My selfishness to achieve more than i already had
The burden it had cause to ppl whom i cared

I've stepped far ahead, ignoring the things that was happening
I was blinded by the darkness, from the bright light of the prize
Too late to look back but continue to move on as i carry the sense of guilt
I want to let it all go, i want to tell it off

I pray this will all be worth it
I pray it will all end with a good note
I pray when this is all over
I can look back and smile and will be glad i did so

But right now, at this current moment
Even the light on the prize starts to dim
Blocked by the others whose aiming the same
How can i get past, how can i succeed?


* a silent prayer

Dear god,

Im thankful for all that i've been blessed throughout my years i've lived. I try not to complain and if i do coz i am only human. I will always pray for a little bit of strength and a little bit of hope and faith to face each challenges that you gave me. I realise that you will not give a burden greater than what one can bear. But sometimes i feel i am not strong enough to face them without your help, without a touch of your guidance dear god. I come running to you now coz i am helpless and im at a state where i am clueless on how to move on. I know that my fate lies in your hands but i need to know the guilt i feel right now will it be worth it? I am not questioning but i just hope that the sacrifice that mum had to go through now will be the last she'll ever have to do for me. I want to repay her back every single thing that she'd done for me. I never ever want to see her suffer in silence or cry becoz of what she have to go through. I want her to be proud of me. I want her to know that i the purpose for me to this now is to crave a better future for me, her and our family. I dont want her to be too tired for though she might look strong i know she is holding on very hard to continue living. Her past 10 years bringing us up was hard enough, the past 10 years of sacrificing has taken a toll on her. Though i may not be the perfect daughter in her eyes, i want to try and i want to succeed for her sake, for dad's unfinished dreams and for sis broken dream. Dear god, the most gracious, the beneficient, the merciful the most generous, the one and only. I pray to you to bless me, my family and the road ahead that has been laid out for me. From you i become and to you i shall return.



pls pray that i'll score for my exams.





tOodlEs 11/12/2007 01:42:00 PM

Been visiting the airport quite frequently the past few days. No, im not THAT excited to leave Spore. haha .. After my lonely episode there, the next day mich joined. It was fun having her around. Love talking to her and hear her perspective on things. =)


harworking mich and taking a break me .. haha


den yest, had an all niter with another 3 crazy peepz - julz, damian and pat. 3 of us needed a tutor for FMHT and since the tutor can only make it at night, we decided to meet ard 9+pm at the airport and study the whole night there. We started our FMHT tuition bout 11pm (coz i came late-after my tuition) and ended everything bout 5am. and we successfully completed 4 chaps!!! and i actually finally understand!! AMAZING!!

Went home only after bfast and i reached home bout 730am and wen i woke up it was already 3pm!! time to start mugging for IHRM now.

tOodlEs


guess whose the tutor.. haha
from left: patrick, damian, julz, asy

looks like we're running away to Swiss ready. haha
yes Pat will be checked in as a luggage .. lolz 11/10/2007 09:22:00 AM

it's already gona be the end of a wednesday and there's still much much much to study. I've covered MICE but i doubt i remembered anything. now im still 1/3 way through ROM and im planning to finish it by today!! oHnOoo .. sleepless night. if possible by friday i wana cover FMHT so by sat i'll be done with IHRM. SoOoOooo i have time to re-study again for MICE on sunday for monday morning paper. aRgHhhh ..

btw, i cant feel my hands due to the endless writing of notes!!! 'weeps-crying in pain'

Right now, i here all alone. cold and all by myself at the airport to study. My normal ritual when the study week is here but sadly without my study buddy. Anyone wana come and keep me company? haha ..
At least, sis is on her way here and we gona eat popeye!! yUmMmyY .. something to pick me up - wat else than food huh. hehe.

Back to mugging ..

tOodLes


my messy table full of notes

concentrating hard. hee~

my pri 3 tutee .. haha 11/07/2007 11:59:00 AM

It had been losta fun yest. reali miss seeing them nadi peepz. All are the seniors and alumni as the freshies and jr. have already went for their visiting weeks ago. Started the visiting ard 11.30am and they sent me to sch at 2pm for my last lesson for FMHT. joined them again at around 630pm. =) i think we spent about at least an hr at each other house. coz by the time i reach home was already 1145pm!! hee~ was reali hoping more people to join since i think this will be my last 'jalan raya' with them. ohwell ..

will let the pixs below contd telling my story.


in azm car

the stuffs

us girls: (from left) nad w, nad z, siti, rabz, asy and azm

them guys: (from left) khai, wan, sid and mamat

everyone!!

the supposedly candid shot (sempat seh wan)

after too much eating

the vehicles: 2 cars and a bike

Actually we had 3 cars but since it was more than enuf vehicles, we let azm car go. hee~

Exams in a weeks time. *faints .. time to finish up FBC and then will start hitting the books.

ToOdlEs 11/04/2007 06:40:00 AM

The Bottom Line of my horoscope for today:-

This latest project of yours is closer to completion than you may think. Persevere!

YEAHHhh .. one more project to go, four more exam papers to sit for and it will all be over!! wee~

Yay to myself for actually surviving the past months of no sleep and the endless submissions and deadlines. And i think my butt grew from sitting in front of the lappy for hours without rest everyday. waha.

For now, i gota end the Food Beverage Costing prj ASAP and start mugging for exams .. woahh .. but some time since i used the word mugging .. haa~ .. i need my study buddy!! diiii .. i miss u lots lah gurl. now i need to find a new study buddy .. anyone? haha

sori if my entries nowadays seems short. will start posting longer after the 16th. with more pictures too. hee~

tOodlEs 11/02/2007 05:51:00 PM