I've given up. It's always the same year after year. Makes me feel as if i dont care and im not good enuf to be a good daughter. Mayb this date should be erased off the calender.

i've tried .. and so i think i've did. Mayb it's not enough? Or never will be? It's bad enuf im studying with reasons partly due to guilt and now i felt as if my effort doesnt matter. I

cant read mind but doesnt a little effort counts for a little thank you? Mayb i dont deserve it in the first place. SigH .. i should have gotten used to this huh. Mayb my feelings doesnt come into place in this sort of thing.

Or im juz not allowed to feel angry or dissapointed.

*random*

Sometimes dont you feel like running away
To a direction that you too dont even know
To a place where you expect to be delightfully surprised
To a place that was meant only for you

It's easy to say no one cares
It's not at all difficult to never be there
It's great having people to care only for you
But if you think about it ...
doesnt people have feelings too?

~ AsYUrAh rOsLAn~
~ 21 yRs ~
~ 14 sEpT 1986 ~
~ SIM & IMI, Swiss ~
~ BA (hons) in int'l tourism & events ~
~ MaLAy mUsLIm ~
~ nar_alien@hotmail.com ~


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* coNTenTeD * hApPy *
* ChoCoLaTeS * bEaRs *
* boOkwoRm * sPeciAL *
* tRaVeL * yELLow *
* mIrAcLeS * piAnO *
* mOviEz * MuSiC *
* vIrGo * hOteLs/eVEntS *
* yOGa * gUItAr * * fAirYtALe * dAydReaM *
* iSoLAtiOn * mAgiC *

:: aSpirAtiOns ::

1.coMplEte mY dEgrEe with a min of sec hons
2.fAll iN lOvE
3.mY drEaM jOb
4.wOrk iN duBai
5.LivE a fULfiLLinG LifE wiTh mY fAmiLy & fReNs

anz

cleo

dee

elena

g.w

j.d

mas

mel

mich

nickizah

nad.z

nadi-ians

nokz

rad

siok

u-ka

zila

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