My throat hurts and im having stomach uneasiness and i wish i could juz dissapear. I think im somehow am suffering frm a slight depression. I have no idea when and how or why but mayb i lost the feeling of looking forward to something when i wake up everyday.

But im alright. Truly. Mayb rite now. from where im standing, the sun has yet to come out. It's just the days where it rains non-stop and wen it doesnt, it's just drizzling or cloudy or just that the earth stop spinning leaving me stuck in the night time.

On a more cheefully separate note, watched Because I Said So with sis yesterday. An interesting storyline and in some parts, i choked up frm tears. I didnt cry but was just touched. Unlike wen i watched A Walk To Remember, tears actually keep rolling down my cheeks. haha. Then, a bit of retail therapy for sis and pizza hut again for dinner.

And currently to fill up my boredom, been stuck with a book by Nora Roberts and oh how i wish i could live in the coutryside. Away from tall buidings everytime i look out the wondow or hearing noises from vehicles passing by.
I just want to see the endless horizon stretched out. To breath in the cool morning air and late nights atmosphere while swinging on the porch enjoying freshly baked cookies and a glass of milk while wrapping myself in a nice toasty warm blanket with a book by my side. And to enjoy the early morning sunrise and the late evening sunset. To fill my time with endless baking in the kitchen or drawing non-sensical pictures that only i could interpret or get engross in books that test my mind or just bring me away from reality and get lost in the world im reading about.
Or mayb i can imagine my life near the beach, doin exactly what i've said above but as a plus, i could have morning or night walks by the beach and have the crashing waves sounds as a bedtime lullaby.
Or mayb a cottage in the woods, where i can actually have an advanture of my own, trekking and discovering.
I know that all that i just stated wont exactly come true but mayb i just add in to my wishlist coz as they say .. somehow wishes do come true if you really believe. hahaha

back to fill my time with nothingness. im too bored that i become to lazy when my room is shouting for me to clean it up and my laudry basket for me to clear. haizzzz .. i really need to dissapear. haa ..

ToodlEs 4/11/2007 05:32:00 PM