help me understand
Friday, March 02, 2007
What is the fun of telling people things last minute when all you do is trouble the other person. If you know that you need to go then go and say it out. You think by keeping it all to urself and only telling them wen they crucially need you and THEN dropping the bomb on them is funnie? Then go ahead and laugh! Well .. FYI .. it isn't k. It's just plain rude and irresponsible and downright frustrating.
The next scenario. When ppl sms, you could very well ans! A simple hey, i reply u back or hey im busy at the moment or i'll get back to you soon is better than to just dissapear. At least if you weren't at your phone at that moment when the other person msg, you can very well msg back any time of the day rite. Argh .. i wonder why some ppl needs a mobile wen they dont jolly well use it.
Then we have those who said they are all for it. To be in, to help out. The enthusiasm, the promises. And suddenly .. BAM .. they forgot? how can one forget? How irritating can that be. But mayb one should never have believed in those promises in the first place huh.
Then there's this other problem. It didnt quite get to me untill a moment ago wen i had this convo with mum. This back pain i have due to my op keeps coming and going and due to that the amounts of pills i swollow a day could surprise anyone. But even after the countless numbers of so called 'health supplement' that i've tried have no effects wat so ever. So mum asked me to go visit THE nutralist person and suddenly i realise even if i go and even if i tell him the pain im going tru, the sickness im facing every single day of my life never gonna change it. ALl he can do is to ACT concern and understanding but i kno that in truth, he never could experience whatever that i will be telling. After years of seeing countless of doctors who come and go and seeing their fake expression, you'll just get tired of it. You get bored with having hopes that they'll understand and that they might be the one who have the cure. Wishful thinking for far too long.
Hmmm .. this entry sounded somehow bitter & angry. To whoever who might take the entry to personally, im sorry. i wasnt directing it to anyone in particular. I myself do make such mistakes sometimes. Aren't we all humans after all. Only hopefully now we are able to think of other first and how our actions will affect another.
On a totally separate note. Im thinking of joining body sculpturing. Not for the purpose of losing weight
(i have that way under control) but for me to do something of myself to keep fit & feel better bout my health. waha. wat ya think? mayb i'll register soon after i get a confirmation that my heart can take the whole regime. hee
Hakuna Matata!! & Toodles
3/02/2007 12:04:00 PM