Dear god,

For this last week of mine, pls make it as painlessly as possible. I had enuf of being looked down at and being blamed and being told off in frnt of everyone. It had been an enriching experience so far but i could not see myself this way long. It had been a challenging 5 months and how i wish it could end already.

I miss sch and all my wonderful frens and the feeling of freedom & not being judged for mistakes I make. Isnt internship a place to learn? Doesnt everyone makes mistakes? Doesnt everyone forgets? Aren't we all human?
If i didnt make any mistakes how can i learn? and everytime if i did and get blamed & damned for it, how i not be afraid?

Im so tired of all this. Im tired of playing pretend. Im tired of not being able to be me. Im tired of having to motivate myself every morning. Im tired of looking at my fake smile. Im tired of trying to feel alright.

On a seperate note dear god, i sometimes wonder where my path is leading me to. Sometimes it seems i could not see the light at the end of the tunnel. If i did it would juz my imagination. Therefore dear god, pls be with me every single step of my journey. Never even for one blink of the eye to leave me on my own. Give me the strength i need. Embrace me with your love and help strengthen my faith, my wisdom and will.

Bless me and my family. Give strength to my mum for having to raise the six of us on her own. T my siblings, help them tru all challenges that is fated to them and be with them too every step of the way.

I thank you for what you have given me so far. I know that everything happens for a reason and that you know what is the best for me. Im grateful to be where i am - Having a big family i can go crazy and talk to. A mum whom i can share my joy and sorrow with. Friends whom have helped me tru times of need and time of happiness. A life that have made me grow to someone im sure my parents are proud of.

Amin.




and so yesterday sis went to watch Il Divo live at the Indoor Stadium. I would go wit her but im totally broke. Im saving up for a new hp and im intending to watch Phantom of The Opera. Anyone interested as well?? heez
But i did get to see some videos that my sis took. Their voices juz blew me away!! If Josh Groban would make a concert here, without a doubt i'll go!! no matter if it burns a huge hole in my pocket! waha

So back to work for me today. 7 days to go!! and back to school!! huraahh .. =)

tOodlEs 1/19/2007 03:11:00 AM