I survived a week without them. Sometimes i wish i were one of them to say goodbye as well. Alot of changes happened in this few days and had made me evaluate myself if i am good enuf. Just wen myself confidence is slowly rising, it is now back to square one. I've made alot of promises to myself to whr i want to werk in the future. I shall list them all out as and when i deem to. hahaha. but if u want to kno, feel free to ask.

As much as i dread weekdays now, i still have to find something to motivate me to get tru the day, the week and this final two month. Sometimes i do think that i am sometimes slow in understanding stuff. It takes time for me to actually understand something fully and from mistakes i made are the best way that i kno how to avoid them in future. But mayb this is not an advantageous attribute an employer looks out for. Mayb they need someone who is a fast learner and one who doesn't make any mistakes. Mayb it'S just me that is not suitable and it's just me that doesn't fit into their co. vision and mission. Whatever it is, since i'm here i will continue to do things to the best of my ability and whatever happens in between i shall take full responsibility to it.

It's true they say that you will only miss school once you started your internship/attachment. I miss the days whereby i will have to stay up late for research and report/proposal writing, presentation preparation and all the stressfullness and fun-ness in between. I miss feeling sleeping during early morning lectures or the long 2hrs tutorials or the long breaks between classes or the exhaution and the complains and everything related to school.

Bottomline, going to school beats werking .. anytime.

On a seperate note, people are not what they seem to be. No wonder in the real world outside, you can never easily trust anyone and to never keep your guard down. As weird as it seems even how superb you might be you must never outshine your seniors or in any way be better even by 1%. In addition, people will always agree with those at the upper position even when they kno it's wrong and they love to eat up their words. Due to that, backstabbing is sooo common in the working world. As alert and smart you think you are, you can never avoid being stabbed. Yes it do hurt. Alot. but the right thing to do is to move on. Complain a little but move on. Forgive? Mayb. Depends on how deep the stabbing is.

Right now im missing my frens. Su, Brainy, Peiling, Nad, Huiying, Fate, Di, Joey .... pls someone ask me out. i need the comfort of familiar great frens whom i can go crazy with.

Had fun today. Another sis day outing with my elder sis after werk. She planned to go shopping for werk clothes but i ended up going for retail therapy as well. And sooo .. i have to fast for the next 3 weeks. waha.
Ate at Ramen Ten for the first time and im glad to say it was actually not bad. Had fun goin out with sis. Glad that we're actually bonding. Catching up on lost time i suppose but whatever it is im loving it. =)

Thank god tml's sunday. Im totally dead beat. Till then. Toodles!!! 12/09/2006 04:20:00 PM