MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

Been slacking my sunday away doing absolutely nothing. There's stil lots to do in my to do list such as my capstone subject outline and my portfolio draft for example. But here i am refusing to face the damn slow computer at home that will only make my blood boil since it loves jamming itself up every few minutes.

So i decided to spent this rare and luxurious free time of mine, enjoying the day away as the rain continues to pour down. Only im enjoying this all by myself which is fine by me. Watched The Little Mermaid, Sky High, King Arthur, Phantom of The Opera, Love Actually and the list goes on and right now im filled with a bit of guilt. But dammit! I deserve this break. Im emotionally and physically drained out. A miracle i've survived nearly a month by myself.

Thank so much cha2 for going out with me last monday. It was really a comforting sight to see someone im close to. Seems like it was just recently that we met twice in a week before SIP starts for long chats and juz the company. Love you lots babe.
And i can't wait for tonite. Finally meeting my darlings - audrey, su and nad! At least the sight of them later will give me the motivation for the weeks to come. At least being around them, i get to be myself and not play pretend.

Oh and hav you seen the calender or realise the date? Tml is the 26th!!! That means juz one more month to go! 'grins'

On a seperate note, do you sometimes wonder what's your purpose in life? What you actually suppose to achieve and do before you breath out your last breath without regrets? Sometimes you are so sure what you will be doing and the road you are going to take. But suddenly, at a particular moment, a moment when you have time to sit and think, a tugging feeling and a faint voice remind you that you're not all that. It usually comes and goes but when it appears, it never fails to put you down and you just need all that strength and willpower to move on.

Speaking of moving on, they say never to live life in the past but isn't the past makes you who you are and is a part of what you've become. From your past you learn to judge life and the way you should live and it makes up your character and personality.
Mayb it's just me. Mayb i have too many bottles screwed up tight refusing to let them go. Mayb im proud of the bottles i've collected throughout the years. It's not wrong for me to keep it all hidden and carefully choosing which one shd i open but mayb the content in the bottles that i've been preserving so far are the wrong ones.

Whatever it is, i still have time to figure it all out. My journey to uncover the secrets of life still awaits me. I may be anticipating for its arrival but somehowim afraid of what i'll discover and obstacles for me to face to reach the certain destination. But being able to overcome ur fear is one big of an achievement that will show how strong a person you are.

Much more to write but till here i shall end for now. Toodles! 12/25/2006 05:40:00 AM