Once again my stoopid comp is giving me problems and this is the 3rd time im trying to write this post completely. So i shall make it short and sweet before it shuts down on me again.

back to werk today after the long off days we had since saturday. i so miss slacking. the great thing this time, no nid to think of werk nor sch. enjoyed it so much. so sad it had to end so fast. lolz

And so for my raya, i enjoyed it minus the period cramps that i keep getting. Hate the time of the month. Other than that, this year's raya is somehow nice. i can't find the exact word to describe it but for now nice seems to suit it. Somehow, it's going back to how it used to be whr we wld look forward to the day. =)

Some pixs we took:


the family in blue


the four eldest


3 angels


at tok ngah hse

looking at the pixs, makes me smile and my heart warmth with love. Really proud of them and love them to bits. Think i've said this before but no harm saying it again rite - eventhough we might irritate and would love to kill each other at times but i'm glad to have this big crazy family of mine. =)
Only that dad is missing. Im do miss him alot. Sometimes i wonder what life would be like if he's still around. We would be travelling like we use to other than to m'sia and we would still have a car to travel around as a family in and for us (my siblings) to feel complete having both parents like others do.
But on the darker side, we still have to mix around with THEM and dad have to pay for all our doctors and op bills and he will still suffer in pain.
And i also couldnt help but wonder if he's proud of me, of what i've achieve, who i've become and what i am now. Mayb one day he will appear in my dream for me to hear his voice again and answer all this qns and give me one last big hug.
The early years when we lost him, there were times i suffered in silence. Ask me and mayb i'll answer. Memories that i hope to forget but at the same time would still want to remember. Even if i do try to forget, how could i? Scars dont heal completely do they? Mayb bcoz of it i became stronger and also the reason why i have this high walls built around me.

Hmmmm .. enuf of reminiscing and back to the present. And next sat, it's back to sch once again for the campus training thingy. im missing my gurls already. heez.

tOodlEs

oh and below are some pixs we took wen we (the interns) wore baju kurung to werk. hee





10/26/2006 05:24:00 PM