Mayb im making a big deal out of it. Mayb i juz have to learn to let it go. Mayb good things were never meant for me.
How could difficulties be good wen all it does is to put you down. And juz wen u try to slowly get up, you are slammed back down. So can i juz stay lying on the cold floor? i guez not .. but it's juz tiring me out soooo much.
Doors that i really want it to open wide will forever remain close and when there's a small glimmer of hope that the next one that i hope for opens, it will shut close again. So now im stuck in a place where doors are lock tight and sealed shut untill someone from the other side help me open one of them. but does anyone care to open and see if im on the other side? i need to find a key. THE key.

I can't change who i am. I can't be loud and outspoken wen im the type whose shy and reserve. I can't share my life stories to any strangers and i don't easily trust. So does that make me cold, unfriendly and snobbish? sigh ...

2 weeks down and more to go. heaven or hell? neither .. it's juz a place i guez.

missing my frens a lot.

toOdleS 9/27/2006 05:45:00 PM