Been cleaning my room since sunday and the dust that have been collected since the last room clean up is really overwhelming!!! by the time i'm halfway tru, my nose was already swollen and red and dripping. I hate my nose wen it's time for cleaning. just abit of dust will leave me sneezing non stop.
Anyway, the big brown cupboard that i have to keep all my school stuff and other stuffs have not been in use since like last 2 sem and i didnt even touched it. Wen i finally came around to start cleaning it, the dust accumulated was oh my god. it was as if the cupboard has been there untouched for 10 years! and now im still in the process of reorganising everything. My notes that i've binded from yr1 till now is alot!! i cant believe i actually studied all that stuff!!!

As much that it's great that i finally start cleaning my room, i've been stuck in my house for ever since the last paper. for one, no one asked me out. secondly, im broke. thirdly i wanna finish clearing my stuff before SIP starts. fourthly, im feeling under the weather this past few days. fifthly, i donno where to go and even if i do i dont have the mood to dress up to go out and to take the bus/mrt to the destination (this is the time wen i really wish i have a license and a car).


Can i feel healthy and normal for at least a day? Never in my life wen i wake up my head will not feel heavy or that i do not feel breathless or that my whole body does not feel weak or that my back doesnt ache.
I want to be able to run as fast and far without feeling my heart beats very very fast after a short distance or the fact that i will lose my breath and can't breath easily.

As much as i believe in miracles and magic i've yet to experience or see it happening. I still do believe that dreams and wishes do come true and that magic exist (gd magic) in the world. or that miracles and fairy tales really happens that leads to a happily ever after.
But sometimes reality is far to strong and too overpowering to have faith in all that. but somehow, i shall keep on believing until the time i feel that fantasy is no more than reality itself. haiz ..

tOodles

anyway .. to RabiA .. hAppY 20tH biRthdaY!!! (her's was on the 4th btw) 9/04/2006 07:56:00 PM