With a blink of an eye, tml is THE day. The whole five days of training took a toll on the whole Nadi. Everyone is soo tired since having to report everyday at 10am and only go home bout 10 -11pm+ and the constant criticising and complains. Reali demoralising. To think that having to learnt everything in juz 5 days is taxing. From our perspective, ppl do take us for granted. anyway, this big show that comes along once in a while is to hav fun, learnt new stuff and be expose to the world of production werk. isnt dat why we join nadi in the first place.

At least this production helps bond nadi closer to each other and mayb with other subgroups as well.

Hopefully tml will turn out well. This is one event everyone looks foreward to. good luck to lights, sound, video, camera, crews and runner. love u guys. and to all performers!!! have fun tml!


She's having her weird mood swing again. haiz ..


Anyway guys. another day tml. not been getting enuf sleep. tkcr and toOdles. 3/31/2006 07:10:00 PM

Day two of pentas training. Everything still messy. Helping julie out in lights. But actually she's alright on her own. u go gurl! u can do it!!

Been reporting to sch 10am and only going home at 10pm. 12hrs of sch!! and it for the first time dat time passes soooo fast in sch!! haha ..

time passes fast wen im helping julie onli ar. if i do my role for now as FM, i probably gone mad trying to entertain myself. haha

rite now ... tired. sleepy. and my legs are weak from standing soo long. haha ..


met su to giv her tixs. miz her sooo much! miz brainy and my ghostly sis and nadz and chix lil and hy too!!

but gonna meet brainy for a dinner date this friday. Su! Nad! Peiling! Joey! Huiying! join us!


she was back to normal today.

weird bu t its so much better.

thank god.

3/28/2006 07:07:00 PM

Sometimes becoz of this i juz hate her. She kept repeating the same old damn thing as if her life is the most miserable of all. ARgHhhhhh ...

Do u think i love my life?

Do u think i love being who i am?

Do u think think im freaking enjoy being sick? seeing the doctors for all this stupid medical reasons? having my heart beat like crazy most of the time and having fainting spell sometimes?

Do u think i choose to be here? to be in this family?

Do u think i pick to be in a family with sooo many irrtating small siblings?

Do u think i dont feel any pain? or anger? or frustration? or sadness? or regret?

Even if u do kno ... u dont care do you. Coz your life is much much more important. U have sacrifice so much dat now it's all about u rite. Everything muz be about u now rite since now we've grown up.

I am juz a mistake or in fact we are juz a mistake in ur life. Dont deny it coz i kno sometimes u feel dat.

I have enough. Too much.Too long. Too tiring.

If this helps, im sorry.

Sori for causing u trouble. sori for being here. sori for being me. sori for being sick. sori for being heartless. sori for ever being in ur life. sori for not following ur expectation. sori for being sori.

juz too tired to care anymore. 3/27/2006 05:31:00 PM

before i start my post:

hAppY 18th biRthdaY to nAdiah WahAb .. & ..

aN adVancEd hApPy 18th biRthdAy tO naDiah zAinAl !!!!!

mAy all of u guys wishes and dreams be fullfilled and may u be blessed with all the luck and happiness in the world. Stay cute and cheerful always. All the best for ur future endeavours ... hUggIeS ..


After my class today, met the nadians to go to Nadia W. bbq bday party. Before that they were from Escape .. they went w/out meeee!! haha .. Anyway, we shopped for both the nadiahs bday prezzie. Had to trick Nad Z to follow me and shahirah to get Nad W bday prezzie so she wont kno that the rest was getting sumtin for her too. and finally at about 6.30pm, headed off to east coast park. There, we hang out, ate and bbq marshmellow while waiting for the cake. And then played the guessing game thingy. u kno the sort of thing that is actually ez once u know how to play but muz try to figure it out. but asy asy asy .. haiz. but it was fun. Then was time for cake cutting. there was mango cake, forest fruit and tiramisu. wondering why got 3 cakes? coz there was 3 bday kid. hehe.
Went off about 9.30pm. Me, Nad Z, khai and shahirah went back to parkway for the bus while some of the rest took wan's car back.
Overall, a fun day out. Will be seeing em' back again on monday onwards. yAy ..

hOpe both the nAdiahs love the prezzie .. heez

ToOdles for now. =) 3/25/2006 04:49:00 PM

SATU production - Nadi peepz


the girls


the guys


everyone (nadi & performers)

Bukit Tinggi


the train we took to and fro


on the train


feeding fishes at japanese garden


climbing the steps of the garden


resting. me and sis


at one of the japanese hse there


wahahaha... sis ask me to do this


the castle awaits for the princess - me. wahahaha


welcome to our fairytale land .. lol


our transportation


my family without khai.


a feast for a king


roslan's angels


my wax hand


our adopted hamster - bugs brownie (cool name huh)


me with a rabbit (the rabbit looks fake. ahahz)


my bro and sis with 'our' rabbit

~story bout my bro on catching a rabbit~


first, try to run as fast as the rabbit


den try blocking it so that it will not run again


finally, success! the rabbit is urs. hahahahaha



bowling time


me me and whu else but juz the tree .. lol


my bed on the train


.... ok dats it ... hope u guys enjoy it. *beams ... toodles. 3/24/2006 03:37:00 PM

And after yesterday, my training at underwater world was over. So the next time wen i come back to werk, i'll be on my own. To open my own counter and deal with everything myself. but with the help of my colleague shd i still unsure of some things. =)

And juz now had Nadi training. Reached school about 9.45am but the Audi onli opened about 10.20am i think. Anyway, it'S for the Nadi ppl to familiarise emself with the stuff there for the upcoming pentas. And guez wat my role is ....

Floor Manager ...

Wat the hell am i suppose to do for the five days of practice? oh well ..

Speaking of my role ... calling all year one and two frm TP. Anyone wanna help out in pentas under ushering. Places are limited. So if u wanna, get back to me ASAP aite. Seal points awarded.

And so after the training me, julie, nad Z, haikal, hanifi, farhan and mamat had lunch at New York pizza. We ordered this super large hawaian pizza and it was realli super large!! haha .. not bad but not reali not dat wow lah the taste. Den as the five of em' headed to the arcade, me and julie walked ard CS. We didnt hang out tog that long but starting monday will be seeing em everyday. haha.

Bukit Tinggi Summary Cont'd

In day four we headed off to Colmar Tropical and there my sis kept saying that everything looks fake as she had experience seeing real castles and all. There, there was ntin to do. Juz see the building and that was it. But we bought back surveniors which we make our own hand sculpture usuing wax. Was soo cool. but a tragedy happened. I accidentally formatted my camera and all my pixs were gone!!! every single one of em!!! and i took nearly 100pixs!!!! i couldnt help it but cry there and then. I was so at the lowest that day dat i juz couldnt smile after that. ArghHhh ..
Reaching back to our apartment, i hid myself under the blanket, blast music in my ears and slept. And i did felt better after dat.

The next day, we went to the last attraction which is the rabbit farm. something like dat. Went there quite late - about 4.30pm i think. Ended up chasing rabbits and picking em up. That was about that. how 'fun' .. =P

The day later, it was time to go home. Was transported to KL central (dat was after waiting for nearly 1hr - overall transportation there suxs big time) to put our luggage and den to Times Square for some shopping. Since our train is at 10.30pm, we hav lots of time to spare. There, we had lunch and after that my youngest bro and mum went to the theme park while the rest of us watched Nanny McPhee. I so dont like watching movies there. Ok lah the rate was cheap but the movie theatre was damn small and the ppl there was so rude. Got this aunty whose hp in the middle of the movie rang so loud. Instead of shutting it, she picked it up and start talking loudly into it. Damn irritating can.
Anyway, didnt buy lots of stuff coz im broke and soon enuf we were going back to Singapore. by the way, our way back via the train, we have our own bed instead of having to sit and trying hard to sleep. hehe.

A memorable, interesting, irritating holiday if i say so myself. hahahaha

pixs will be posted up in the next entry. till then .. toodles. =) 3/23/2006 01:57:00 PM

Rite now im at werk. My one hr break is up soon so this gonna be something short and sweet. haha ..

My 4th training. getting used to stuff.

Amazingly not dreading werk.

Still panicking wen the line goes long. but ...
doing fine and great i think. hahahaha.

dats all for now. will update more wen i reach home if im not tired yet. tOodles!!! 3/21/2006 09:37:00 AM

Met di to go to suntec for the 'Study in Australia' convention but we ended up spending bout juz 1/2hr there. haha .. there was not much to see and also our focus was more on going to find out bout University of Queensland and The Orion hotel schools.

And so i decided where im heading for the next 3 years .. a direction to aim for.

but one problem ... where can i get the money to futhur my studies!!

then after that, slack with di at starbucks and finally met huiying. the last time tt i saw her was like the last day of exam!!! it was so great to see her again.

And while di go meet her other fren, me and huiying went dinner tog and we had a long, fun, interesting, funnie and never ending chat. Never reali did talk so much with her (ok, mayb during vietnam trip i think) and i reali enjoyed myself. i think we both did. We ate for nearly 2 hrs at the Manhatten Fish Market coz the atmosphere was reali nice to juz chat but i shall now pick Fish & Co. anytime. We shd do this agn sumtime aite gurl. Now she's one of the ppl in my list that i love to talk to and reali do listen wen i talk. (hard to find a fren whu listen nowadays) thxs gurl for today. =)
next outing --> with my fairy tale princesses groupmates

im so gonna slack tml coz after tml, gonna be a hectic week. oh and my ankle is getting better if anyone was wondering. still hurt wen i press on it but at least i can walk better. =)

Sometimes i think other than blogging i shd go back in writing in a diary. I feel that watever i wanna write here need careful consideration coz whu knows hate tag will arise (eventhough no one tags me). So in my diary i can write whatever shit i want and can be less bothered. The blog will mainly be for ppl to kno hws my life been going.

I juz realised and wondered... did anyone noticed i didnt blog for nearly a week?


Bukit Tinggi trip summary

Depart at 9.30pm to Tanjong Pagar Tarin station for our trip. Be reminded that i was limping the whole time. And so borded the train at 10pm and the 9hrs journey bought us to KL central. There, had breakfast and took at 40min taxi ride straight to Bukit Tinggi. Upon arriving had to wait for sumtime since we were there earli - 10am and there's no available room for us. After years of waiting finally we got our apartment room.

A nice one bedroom apartment with a huge balcony of the forest view for the 6 of us. Ended up, me and sis had the bed while the others camped out at the living room. The first day wen u arrived, we didnt go anywhere. Decided to rest and stay in since i wasnt feeling well too. Soon night came and we found ourselves fighting huge bugs who came into our room via the balcony coz outside was reali dark - they wanted light. soooo after the endless battle we finally got the room to ourselves again.

day 2 we decided to go to Colmar tropical (an attraction there) but ended up going to the Japanese Tea House and the Japenese garden. It was really really really nice!! the air was fresh the garden was beautiful and secretly, i was awed. Then since it was nearly 6pm, we headed to the Sports complex for some bowling (i officially sux at bowling) and for an hr of badminton. Despite my ankle still being swollen, i bowled and played badminton against my bro. crazy rite .. but i was too tempted and to be left out of the fun? no way ... after enjoying ourselves tremendously, we went back to call it a day.

dAy 3, everyone woke up late and was too exhausted for no reason. So we slept in till very very late and soon found out that in msia time passes sooo slowly. After sleeping for like an eternally, time was juz 4pm and we kept getting hungry. (*note that we brought our own food. for the whole trip there we didnt spent on any restaurant. we bought canned beef, chix and fish and even rice .. hehe) after much eating and more sleeping, night finally came.




ok .. shall continue the advanture on the next post. tOodles ppl ... 3/19/2006 05:55:00 PM

yes ppl (those who knows i was away) im back!!! after nearly about a week away, im glad ro be back. Reached home juz bout 1 1/2hrs ago and im exhausted. i shall elaborate more later after i uploaded my pixs and my sis as well.

Overall i shall rate the place: 4/10
The experience: 6/10
Spending quality time with my family 10/10

It have been so long all of us were doing everything together. So a change in atmosphhere there and juz hanging out tog was priceless.

Later, off to class.

Tml, off to suntec for the study in australia fair

Tue and Wed, werk.

Thur, go kepo the lights and sound ppl at audi

Fri - Sun, not sure (haha)

ok .. enuf for now. byez peepz. shall rest for nw and post up my pixs. toOdleS ... 3/18/2006 03:22:00 AM

and so ... SATU ... is over. After about juz 2 days of practice and with the limited equipments we gotta use, everything turned out great! shall update more with the pixs that will be on the way. But still, i wanna giv a big big hug to my ASM, Sound and lighting personnel, the crews, FM, AFMs, ushers, runners, zah, ida and abg yazid. thxs for everything u guys. thxs for making this production a memorable one.

And now, my ankles are swollen. trip and fell and now it'S swollen. wont elaborate much but im having difficulty walking.

and we are going bukit tinggi later at nite. how to go like this? surely im gonna have a bad, bad, bad holiday.

Results yest was bad. v. bad. i didnt have to repeat anything but still it was bad.

Was thinking of going to the IT show to getmy Ipod but sis nw hav to do it for me. And actually there's a talk on the orian hotel schools for my degree that me and di and sudrey was planning to go. and now muz forgo that as well. shitty man .. im hating life rite now.

now go away. letme hide in a corner to slowly kill myself frm depression.

the only thing that i cant wait for is Pentas and meeting up & hanging with all those wonderfull Nadi ppl. 3/11/2006 08:47:00 AM

Yes ppl ... im bored! im killing time to wit for Dia to start. Work was once again fun! Surprisingly, nad was there!!! yAy!!! makes time to pass more faster. Today was only the 2nd day of my training. Still unsure of all the promotions. nevermind .. 3 more training lessons to go. i really need all the help i can get. Aunty azizah say if im ok, next mth she will put me on the 2nd shift which is the counter for FITs. And wen im already more confident bout everything she will letmi do the TA as well.

The crowd as usual today was ok. at one point it was soooo quiet and the next the queue was never ending. And while the looonnnggg queue was on, i was there observing and absorbing everything that was happening. Hard work ok. hahaha .. finally tml my last day having to wake up earli and reach Sentosa by 8.30pm.

Wednesday cming soon. means SATU is near! and wen SATU is near means exams results are near ... nOOoo .. but wen exams results are near means, family holiday to Bukit Tinggi is near! yEeessSS ... haha

lets see wat else shd i crap about .... 'scratching head' .....ntin i guez. will update bout SATU soon. mayb after the show and my results as well and my preparation to bukit tinggi. tOodles!! 3/06/2006 02:15:00 PM

And so ... tainted flower was today!! yEahhh ... met up with sophie and my lil bro right after pentas meeting to hav dinner. Den finally ... after long last ... (no, not tainted flower yet) met mummy!!! hahaha .. she was one of manager wen i was werking in parkway. Doris!! i miz u sooo much! u've been so motherly to me!!! thxs so much!! m\love ya lots!!

Den it was time for the show! At the community centre, met Marrisa!!! gurl! u're getting prettier by the minute! and i miz u soooo ... and emma too!!! Arghhhh!!! the last time i saw them was years ago wen our pri sch class did a bbq gathering!!! we shd do that agn some time aitez.

Overall, i giv the whole show a two thumbs up!!! the plot is sooo damn unexpected in the end and i was really amazed and was awed by everything!
Espacially to yazid and halimah, u guyz were great! My congrats to u guyz, THE next big thing! haha .. realli salute u both for being such a talented actor and actress. Not forgetting to the other actors & actresses, u guyz were fantabulous. Such wonderful play wouldnt be possible without all of u! and to the production mgr, director, SM, ASM and all the backstage crews. the show cant go on without the ppl behind the scene. I really do enjoy the nearly 2hrs show and didnt realise that time juz flew by. Once again, great job!!!

More bz days ahead. After this month then i be able to breath once again ... longer and deeper. hahaha .. in the meantime, take care ppl. tOodLes!! 3/03/2006 05:52:00 PM

And so ... work was fun! yAy!! came earli .. at 8.20am i was already in Sentosa!! but it'S ok lah. used to it ready. met up with kak ros and den werk started. learnt how to open the counter and this and that. learnt what to press on the screen to talk to ppl and everything. Den in the afternoon was transfered to Sis doris to learnt more on the FITs counter and she letme try it out! was shaky and nervous but it was fun! She really helped me alot and taught me lots! so much discounts to take note of but all's good. juz need more training before i can survive on my own. And so 4 more training dates for the whole month and hopefully after that will be more confident. 'bEamS'

Anyway, SATU is cming soon and i juz dont wanna talk bout it. haiz ...

Moving on, Tainted flower is tml!! i cant wait! lots of talented actors and actresses and im sure it'S gonna be all great.

Next, went to the career fair juz now with nad, di, audrey and joey. Concentrated more on the educational part of the fair coz we're looking for universities to go to after our poly life!!! and now im having another love for another uni other than UQ!! OhnO .. so next 2 weeks gonna be going down again for another exhibition on Studying in Australia to find more info and pick the best of the best schools for my degree!!! wahahahaha ...

While joey rushed off first followed by di and then nad, im stuck with the ever fun and cute and pretty audrey!! wahahah .. and finally had banana split! yAy!! i've sastified my craving for it since study week. haha .. thxs gurl for the treat! call me wen u're bored then we can go out agn and u can treat me agn. hahahaha ..

and my schedule for the ollowing days ahead:

sat: pentas meeting and tainted flower
sun: slack myself to death @ home (haha)
mon: werking
tue: werking and SATU meeting
wed-fri: SATU
sat: IT fair
sun- sat: family hols in bukit tinggi
... to be continued ...

ok ppl .. i be soooo busy only on this sunday. so much for a holiday rite. but hey, im going for a holiday oso wat. hahaha ...

shall pen off now .. amazing race is on! finally!! toOdLEs ... 3/02/2006 02:39:00 PM