Was last day of school today .. nOooo .. not even a few hours after i step school i already missing it. I dowan leave TAS yet. but like all gd things hav to come to an end rite. and so after absorbing everything there ... the lecture theatre, the leather chairs and wooden desks, the classrooms, the toilet, the computer lab, the library, the staff room, the benches, the canteen, RITS, petit cafe, warong and everything there, i left with a heavy heart. shouldnt i be happy we are finally back to TP campus? but somehow i dont. espacially leaving all the great lecturers behind. haizzzz ...

so for our goodbye TAS dinner, we celebrated by going to pizza hut. me, audrey, su, nad and peiling. Had a wonderful time with them. ate till i cant eat no more. yumMy .. funnily after eating so many that i feel stuffed, i can still order dessert and eat clean. Oh well .. there's always room for ice cream. hahaha .. den we walked around and i did a lil shopping. Everywhere was still on sale and everything is so beautiful!!! but im broke!! i need to work again but not at my old werkplace.

Halfway tru, peiling went off first to meet her fren and so we continued and after that went to walk around before we rushed home to watch pesta pesta pesta.

and now, im not in the mood yet to study. still got some stuff to memorise. and now oso abit sad. becoz ... my laptop is officially dead. sobsOb .. my bro is trying to fix it now but he say whatever things in there is hard to guarantee safe. MY PIXS!!!! all my pixs since mid 2003!!!! nOoooOOOOooo ... i dont care bout the documents or any songs .. i juz want my pixs!!!!

and after FBO juz now left the whole class thinking. where are we going frm here. where are we heading off too. i had it clear in my mind but still im left thinking bout it. So after poly gonna be going to uni. but what uni? i kno somewhere in australia and im stuck with two great choices. then after that what? to werk in the hotel line? join either the hotel management training or corporate training and go up the ladder fast? how how how? im scard and afraid and terrified of the future. what gona happen to me in 5 years time or mayb 10 or mayb next 25 years.

Last time when i was in primary sch i was just thinking which sec sch i wanna go to. then in poly when i was taking my N, i was just aiming for the Os .. then wen in sec 5 i was thinking of which poly to go to and what course to choose. i didnt think wat i wanna be and after that what i wanna do or how old i'll be by then. as i .. as we grow older, we hav to shoulder alot of responsibility. i still need to experience alot. but facing them is what makes me move 2 step backwards instead of 1 step forward.

Oh well .. for now let me juz take one step at a time. study for this cming exams. do well, score high and then comes to my interview for underwater world and work there i hope and then there's SATU and my holiday to bukit tinggi with my family and then PENTAS. After Pentas mayb i decide my next course of action. rite this moment im still upset about my pictures that are gone for good. sigh ... tOodles and jiayou ppl for ur cming exams!!! study hard!!!

2/10/2006 05:18:00 PM