Been yawning my morning away. haha .. im so restless and exhauted. i have no mood for projects, no mood to read not even to watch tv. I cant sleep and i juz dont kno wat to do. Now it'S 2pm+ and i was planning to do my project act in the afternoon but now im thinking of doing it at night. at 8pm mayb.

Wednesday was a very very long day. Had project meeting from 10am to 4.30pm!!! can u believe it! i cant! i've never have project meeting for soo long! and after that it wasnt over. Had nadi meeting next. till about 5.30 i think. then hang out for awhile with julie, rabz, shahirah and mamat. Was reali glad for that. we had fun at Toys R Us didnt we. lOl .. we were all so deprived of childhood toys. ahahz ..

Somehow i find my life un-exciting. other than sch, there's werk and if not i'll be stuck at home unless someone ask me out. but sometimes if they do, i decline. why? will spend money that im suppose not to and mayb bcoz im not in the mood for fun. haha ..

Oh and something bothered me one of the day. Sometimes you expect a fren to understand your situation. You can joke and stuff but there's a limit to that rite. And worst, i hate hearing people saying this " why are you showing THE face ". Hello!! what face? it's my face and if im unhappy i can jolly well show a face. u cant control how i show my face rite and it'S u who are to blame in the first place. Ironically it'S the other ppl who saw my unhappiness while u sit there trying to joke and talk to me as though ntin happen. Sometimes i feel ur juz irritating. we're frens yes but sometimes i wonder why we are when i sometimes hate ur guts and ur attitude. Whatever ... u aint perfect so im not. Mayb im wrong not to tell and im to blame if u dont kno. but i have the right to tell or not to right. ShEesh ..

*note: above was to release my anger. Not reali to anyone in mind. sori if u think it'S u.

Actually rite. A blog is ur online diary but somehow it'S for everyone to read rite. So act when ur posting a blog, u cant reali say what u feel ............ ok stop ............ i donno why this anger and what the hell im talking ...

Anyway, im slacking as of now. im exhausted. too exhausted mentally and physically. i juz need to escape for now. frm sch, frm werk, frm everything that hav to do with reality. tOodLes ppl! 12/30/2005 07:03:00 AM