The day have arrive!!! The long waited day where i can finally breath a little is here. AND ... THIS DAY WILL BE MARKED IN MY HISTORY BOOK WHEREBY ..... i cried in school for the first time!!

Why is it u asked? i'll tell ya .. but in a moment. Before that, this week have been tough. real though. completed 2 very difficult quiz which im glad i passed and did 2 long winded peer appraisal .. actually only one of the peer appraisal that took me forever and the three terrible terrible interviews.

The first interview for Applied Research wasnt that bad. It was ok actually. The nightmare came and gone that you never really felt it was there in the first place.
Then it was the CRS interview. The first part of it was ok when we were asked individually on questions from the lecture notes. I could answer them well .. i think ... but it was better than the second part of it. We have to convice Mr Slatter aka Mr Ram to buy our proposal but instead, we came out feeling demoralised. HaiZ .. but nonetheless .. i love our project that my precious group members were soo committed to make it the best.
The last interview was the marketing interview and i'll tell u straight. IT SUCKS BIG TIME!! ArgHhHHhh ... i studied my heart out but instead i got shooted with very difficult qns that i can barely answer. I wasnt able to ans 2 of em' and the other 2, it was .... haiz ... however, I could answer my friends questions instead. Thanks so much! UrgH .. but what surprised me that after coming out of the hell-ish room, i cried. I did! I dont know why. I was telling myself it was over. There was n'tin i could do. But the tears flowed. Hard and lots. Mayb those tears wasnt bcoz of the interview. Mayb it was because i was angry. Angry at myself for not remebering what i studied. Angry at myself for being slow. Angry at myself for being stupid. And after that short burst, i feel better. Much better. Thanks so much to my group mates and Yee Yun for ur comforting words. Espacially to Su who was the first to make me laugh. I never expect that i could laugh after that. But u did made me laugh and im grateful for that. 'hUgGIez'

My aim now .. to study really really hard to for my exams. I just hate seeing myself doing so bad when i kno i have the potential to succeed. It's exhausting to see ppl doing better, to see urself not being able to reach for the stars, to always pick urself up after a long bad fall. These old bruises of mine still have not yet heal and there comes another fall. hOpe that i can take it. Please god. Help me.

Anyway, next week is the last week of sch and im already missing my beloved groupmates. I cant be where i am and be crazy as i am nor be what i am without you guys. In this short period of time, you guys have shown me the meaning of staying happy even when the world in not on ur side and the meaning of friendship by being there for each other in time of good and bad and the greatness of just being urself. Once again, frm the bottom of my heart, i thank all those who have touched my life in one way or another.

Tomorrow, im starting my first job in Bistro Delifrance in TM from 9 to 5. Im having cold feet as of now coz i do not kno anyone there nor know any new menu they have. I'll be a lost ship tomorrow. So come visit me so i will not feel lonely ya. Or if not, on sunday den coz i'll be working there oso frm 9 to 5. For now, need sleep. Been deprived of it. Toodles. (",) 8/19/2005 05:17:00 PM