sick
Sunday, July 17, 2005
I promise to update on the Sriwana concert about 4 days ago rite. haha .. but suddenly became so busy that i do not hav the time to even update on anything. The most i can remember now is that the dances was reali nice and the drama was also very interesting. Except wen there was this part of drama 2 about Puteri Gunung Ledang where i think i drifted off somewhere far. i didnt sleep .. onli that my mind wondered somewhere away from where i am. haha .. too much on my mind i guez.
Anyway, this is the first time since my O levels i woke up reali early on a weekend to do my schoolwork. Suppose to be working now but wen i woke up today, my voice was realli sore and im also down with a flu. What does this indicates? i need rest!! been deprived of it for so long. Juggling school ( studies & cca ) and working at the same time is taking a toll on me. Can i have another week break? but this time with nothing to do. Just laze around and eat and sleep and watch tv and read and practically do anything i want not relating to school or work. can i? please?
With one big roll of tissues at my side, i will and have to finish off my research findings, mindmap and applied research intro and also my case study!! oh no .. im gonna be stuck in front of my comp for the next few hours feeling sick and restless and sick!!!
Oh and juz remembered. Yest at work while i was preparing to go home, one of my colleague ask me. " Asy, ur the traditional, old fashion kind of muslim ar." When i asked her why she said that, she replied " because ur wearing the tudong mah [oh no, the tudong issue again!] and also everytime u want to go back, u will pull down the sleeve to make it long, covering ur arm instead of leaving it rolled up."
Then she continued. "Look at fida, you should be like her. A modern malay girl. She can wear t-shirts and follows her own timing on when she's ready to wear tudong."
It den strucked me. Does by wearing tudong and always going out in long sleeve, you will be preceived as traditional and old fashion? Does by following god orders to do what is to be done being perceived as traditional and old fashion? And if you dont wear tudong because you think ur not ready and when you wear t-shirts or mayb even sleeveless, u are considered modern? Isnt that a shallow kind of thinking? Isnt that so immature?
And in another case, another one of my colleagues (chinese malaysian[CM]) says to another (s'porean) .
[cm]:" I think my malay is much more better than my english."
[s'porean]: "den you go became a malay lah."
[cm]: " haha .. mayb i should."
[s'porean]: " but then, you have to become a muslim to become a malay."
In this case too, i was stunned. You need not become a muslim to become a malay. Muslim is a religion. Malay is a race. Is so totally different. but who can blame them? I now realise society is really clueless. You can be a malay but that doesnt mean ur a muslim. Look around you. SO many lies. So many contradiction. So who should society believe? They only think what they see and from there make their own judgement. They think that if ur a malay ur atomatically become a muslim. We muslims says we have to wear tudong. We have to wear covered clothes and we cannot do this and that. But look around. How many people u see are doing what is preached? How many 'muslims' are not wearing tudong and some even wears mini skirts and tube tops and some are seen drinking beer and eat from non halal stalls? Can they be classified under being a muslim? Even though they break rules and rules of Allah?
Is it fair to us to be judged because of this? to be question juz because a handful of them are disobeying? Is it fair to juz assume all malays are muslims and that since they can do what shouldnt be done and that we can follow and be classifies under being modern? Think about it. You tell me.
Im sori to those who are offended by this is a thought that i feel i should say it out loud.
Oh well, gotta go back to work. Till den. Toodles.
7/17/2005 02:50:00 AM